Christ in Yan

what a long day today again~ tiring too.
alright, went to NTU for combine cgm in the morning. arrived slightly later than i'm supposed to. the mtg was good. ministered to the ppl who wanted to be cgl in future. but why?? why didn't i respond and i have to stand there to hesitate? i was puzzled after everything. i thought i once was so wanting to be a cgl in future. what happened? not that my faith is gone. dont worry ppl. =) is just that i need to find my calling. i dont want to make a decision now. yes, having a vision is good. but, i love ushering too. and if i can, i wanna be a cgl and a future usher leader. just let me think through. and wait for the calling.
after that, went to town. we made it a cg fellowship. in the end, how many went? me, CS and bro aaron who joined us later. why is it that having a cg being together so difficult? all sorts of excuses for not coming along. we're a cell grp. why cant we just be like other cgs who'll wait for their members after svc? go somewhere out of BEST coffeeshop to fellowship? c'mon, we have to be radical. lets make an effort to build the relationship among us alright? ppl are falling apart, not coming for mtgs and even services. lying to their own members. why? we have the trust. but do u betray that trust? hopefully not. i wont too. haii. it's just disappointment today. for one yr in cg, there isn't any time we get together to really fellowship. can we do it? make it happen?
ok. move on. next, we went marche after they arrived. both of us didn't eat as we had our dinner at MOS earlier on. so we played some games and sorts. then we went to cine for some drinks. time flies. it's alrdy 10plus and my phone's ringing. went home first. and now i'm back.
alright, tmr serving for communion and greeters. planned to take church bus tmr so that i can do my hmwk in the bus. haa. more convenient. lalala. thank God i found my lunch kaki. if not, my lunch will be gone again.
now, is the time for sleeping. my pillow, bolster, blanket are all ready for me to hug them. gtg. nites all.
love ya. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/20/2005 11:24:00 PM