Christ in Yan

i've never felt so heart pain before.
my bro, wei lun is now sick.
it began with some throat infection.
which is worse than me and he got even stronger medication than me.
now, he's got a total of 8 ulcers AROUND his mouth area.
and i said around.
normally, ulcers are IN the mouth. near the gums or on the tongues.
his, IN the mouth, ON the gum. ON the tongue. and worse, ON the lips.
i just saw how he put on medication for all the ulcers.
the look of him in pain hurts me so much that i have to hold back my tears.
he wanted to scream pain but was unable to.
isn't that sad?

he's already so slim.
now, even drinking is a problem to him.
some days when i'm leaving for work, he'll tell me he's so hungry as he cant chew or eat anything.
and all i could do is to watch him pain and not doing anything.
i wonder what i could do for him.
growing thinner and thinner.

in the noon, he told me he wants curry fish head once he recover.
all i can do is to pray and wait till the day he recover and i'll accompany him for the curry fish.

when i came back from work just now, he's alone in the living room, on the sofa tugging his legs to himself. i could feel the pain in him too.
now it seems like so many daggers piercing into my heart.
on MC for so many days, hopefully he can catch up with the rest when he returns back to school.

now i think, my little throat infection is nothing compared to his.
i shall not grumble so much abt my ''no-voice'' but use those time to pray for him.

posted by Yan @ 1/10/2006 12:33:00 AM