Christ in Yan

now is 2.30am. a short note before i go ZZZ.

read thru some chem. and i jsut need prayers now. PTL for Maths today, it was rather easy though i might not do super well. i really wanna score better than a C6.
after my paper went home for a short nap then met sx. nice fellowship. and i got really inspired to do more things.

after that went Suntec with Rachel, met up with Jeff and studied Chem. not bad, thank God that i paid attention in class therefore revision was pretty easy.

on the way back while talking to rach, i felt that God is really speaking to me through so many people and things that happened and which is still happening. yes, we're both too attached to UM. and kinda detached from CG. which is a dangerous zone becos it seems like UM is the spiritual family when CG SHOULD BE! BALANCE! i MUST balance.

my management is no good. i admit. if i do not have the balance, how can i be a good leader? so what if i am doing well and good in UM and neglecting my own spiritual family? God doesn't call me to be a leader in ONLY UM, but i can also be a leader in my CG! given a newly multiplied CG, the more i should put in effort in building up people's lives, rise up to the name of core member and not lazing ard, staying in the Comfort Zone of CG.
A leader does not display his/her leadership in one area ONLY, it should be ALL areas. yes, it shouldn't be DOUBLE STANDARD.
As a helper in UM, there're times we need to disciple our sheeps, teach them, help them to grow. but how to do that when i'm not doing what i teach and say? this CANNOT be the way to walk with God. and i know God is not please now. =( but i'll change! for the better.

One leader told Rachel one sentence, which is dont WASTE your life away. yea, we should live our life to the fullest!

planned some stuffs which i'll do after my O's.
Spend more time with my CG and ushers. therefore, i've decided to find office jobs so i can have evenings for dinner with a few at a time.
OF COS KTV!
JB for Shopping and Food.
Organise Outings.
MAHJONG! hahaha.
Complete my BS courses.

there're so many things to do, again like what i was told just now, some things may be urgent, but not important. some things maybe be important but not urgent. so what's the PRIORITY? -rachel

we should start doing something now than to wait till something bad or big happens then trace back what happened. it'll be too late. -swee xiang

BOTH IN THE SAME DAY! it's like WOW! thanks to u two!!

things that i wanna see myself doing after my exams.
1. KNOW ALL the sisters more in the CG.
2. Spend more time with them
3. Build and Rise up more leaders in the team!
4. GROWTH in both CG and UM
5. Learn GUITAR if possible. hahahaha. it might take a long time to master. BUT, whats most important is the WILLINGNESS to learn! and Bible says NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! so who says i cant be a guitarist? hehehe.
6. Reach out to the lost, since i've just completed my VL BS, i should apply the things i've learnt than to let it rust!

ALOT more..... but it's time for bed now. ALL THE BEST TO ME AND THOSE WHO'RE TAKING CHEM TMR! =)

posted by Yan @ 11/07/2006 02:35:00 AM