Christ in Yan

it's just such a disappointing and saddening thing to know.
and i guess only ying understands cos i poured this to her.
i shall not say much to prevent unwanted quarrels or misunderstandings.

working has snatch all the enjoyments i SHOULD have from the very beginning. due to those super long and non stop working hrs, i totally have no life.
and it seems like i've lost all my friends.
regard, is just regard. but all drifted apart.
perhaps it's my fault for not focusing too much on the friendship we used to have and bring it to today.

ying told me friends come and go. we'll meet new people.
of cos i agree with that when i started working again last yr, met new ppl in a new environment. but i seriously dont wish to let go of the past friendships too.
it's all too late to reconcile now. i can try my best, but still, it takes two hands to clap. no point me working hard to salvage, or revive that dead friendship, and there will be a NO in the end.
u may say and think, ''i guess u've long forgotten abt this friendship.''
i would just like to say, no, i've not.
but like i said, it's all too late alrdy.

anyway, later, o lvl results will be released!
i'm nervous abt it. and also worried if i can do well and get into the course i desire.
however, i've alrdy taken the exam and for every beginning, there'll be an ending.
whether this ending is good or bad, i've got no idea until tmr.
i cant blame anyone for the result if it's bad, cos i didn't put super lot of effort into it i guess.
if it's good, highly impossible, but IF, then i'll thank God for it first. then my friends for encouraging and studying together to motivate each other. him who stayed up late to teach me during the period of time and my family for giving me moral support like mum, preparing bird nest and chicken essence for me, church members who constantly send their msgs to support me.
a super big thank you to all of you! in case i dont have a chance to say anymore. choy. ha.

for today, work again.
life at work became a lil better with shu ling bringing those magazines and when we read, we can laugh off the roof. ha.
last few days with her alrdy. quite sad though we dont know each other for super long. but they're really nice people.
having promotion at reev, so more ppl are coming in to buy the promo items.
thats good, cos can kill my boredom. and bad, cos i have to walk ard, serve those super fussy customers. but it's ok. it's my job afterall. i'll be like them when i grow older, who knows? every cent do count.

talking abt this, i'm so broke today after topping up ez-link. i'm still a kid, yet i have to pay $1.42 to travel to bugis?!?! not fair! =(
back to topic.
$7 for the whole day. which is, cant survive. ha.
each meal costs me ard 4-5 bucks. with 7 bucks, i can just have a meal.
after how much i calculate, the 7 bucks still cant cover my whole day expenses.
thank God, leo blessed me with lunch. saved me $3.
and i drank mineral water which i left in shop.
then it was dinner time! got myself one lo mai gai and two small siew mai. for $2.50! but that wasn't full. =(
so i ren!! till closing, aunty, so loving she, gave me ham with bread!! my favourite.
with my $4.50, i bought a instant mee pok dry and vitasoy from 7-11.
now, left with $2!! haha.

i've learnt my lesson, to check my wallet before going out of home. LAME!

and my day ended like this. =)
i smile now, cos i might not smile tmr.
hopefully i can. not forgetting the meal tmr evening! =p

posted by Yan @ 2/09/2006 11:56:00 PM