Christ in Yan

i had so many things i wanna say.
but after reading some stuffs, i think i shouldn't say so much. or i should say, there's nth much for me to say too.

perhaps i'm just too sensitive, eagerly waiting for something to happen and in the end it doesn't turn out as what i wanted. and this reminds me of not having too high hopes on certain things. because the higher hope u have on it, the fall will be much more painful.

i dont know in time to come, down the road, what will happen. miscommunication might be the greatest problem, which i always encounter and end up with heartbreaks.

i'll try to keep the happy memories, and throw away the sad ones. firstly because i wanna live my life happy. and i dont find a need for sadness to take over the place of happiness. i need more space to accomodate happiness. so sadness, get lost.
sadness is not a thing. it's something which unhappy things happen and cause that feeling.

what yun said is quite true, in a sense. she said she dont really know when i'm sad or happy. i'm always smiling and appears ''happy''. it's actually quite hard to be my good friend who knows my feelings? yes, i really ''cover up'' my sadness with some smiles. just because i wanna bring smiles to others. i know people dont like people ard them to be sad or glumpy, it'll spoil their mood.
thats why my sadness will only be revealed at night, in the dark.
for now, it's practically every night of each day.

enough of all this sad sad stuffs.
ya, i'm going back MOS to work part time. i promise i'll quit when i cant handle. shall just work for one two months.

shall stop blogging and go complete my work now! =p

posted by Yan @ 3/20/2006 10:13:00 PM