argh``
well, my mum is now looking at my report book behind me. and she's nagging again. she's gotta meet my form teacher for a small talk abt her precious daughter here next week. i told him to be very frank to my mum. it's ok with me. if he were to complain, then let him be. i'll bear consequences for what i did in sch. anyway, my mum wont scold me. heex. i'll do well for my chinese paper. i promised my mum, myself, my friends who're constantly encouraging and supporting me.yes, she's saying i can do well if i wanna study hard. it wont be a if anymore. it will be i'll study hard. though it's kinda late to start working hard, i'll work harder than ever. i dont wanna get this kinda result. for eg. 32 for L1r4 for this mid-yr exam. oh god.. where can i go? even nursing wont want to accept me. i will either retain or ite or pte. and it's a waste of time and money. haii.. oh ya, i wont want to go nursing too. i'm afraid of blood and stuffs. lolx. though i'm a gal. i wish i could shout out that i'm stupid. but i know, i'm not stupid. and no one is stupid. let's not deprive ourselves. mid yr is over. let's start afresh. lolx. that's what mr. sulaiman said.
left with 3days. and i'm so stressed now. even if after our chinese paper, i'll be worn out too. hmwk one whole list. and is like so much!!! for humans, we have 40 structured essays. this is for the history students. aiya, every subj we have alot of hmwks. and basically there's no holiday for me. first two wks is given to sch. taken away from me w/o my permission. and then i have to piah all the way liao. haii. i'm booked for some days. haven confirm how many though. book me if u wanna bring me out. lolx.
oh ya, i need someone who can help me. or discipline me. 'drag' me out to study. i think i just cant study w/o anyone pushing me. anyone? i know i must be independent. but, i'm trying hard to not be dependent. i can give my 3rd wk and noons thru-out the june break to the someone. haha. *honoured leh*
i wanna open up my chinese book and study. but i just cant bring myself to open them up and read them. i've grown tired of them. lolx. looking at them will make me dizzy. heex. and now, i cant even go have my nap. i think i'm really too stressful. i'm starting to behave oddly, or differently liao. cindy thought i'm going into depression. lolx.
``3.31pm
***late post for today***
received a call when i'm having my nap. heex. it's from CHEC. yeap, i'm gonna join the tuition classes most prob next wk. hmmm.. i dont think i know how to get there. think there's a bus from my hse to the place. lolx. i'm so happy!!!!!
``8.35pm
___u're finally here. i've waited s0 l0ng. but y0u're g0ne the next m0ment___
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