Christ in Yan

lolx. we went crazy again. and this time. 3 crazy woman laughing away in the public. and so many ppl looking. ha. dont care laugh. we shall just have our stomach aching. lalala. sucha enjoyable day today.
firstly, woke up early despite sleeping at 3am last night. cos of that person send me that kinda msg. omg~ ok. then went to school with the class tee once again! woohoo~~ then the ACES thingy. so lame lor. and bo liao. but i did participate. last yr alrdy. i dont think poly will have such things again. ha. so better use this time to enjoy. alright, back to class for some lessons. so funny. i think i wasn't really listening to him speaking. but i understand that topic la. no worries. venice is sucha nice topic. i wanna go there!!! so beautiful! =) finally, the concert. omg~ that slideshow was so touching. if i were the teacher, i'll surely cry. really lor. anyway, it's still quite good la. lolx.
next next, took my board to jiawen's hse. hopefully will be able to finish the board by tmr. =) then we went to town. sunlight for a last outing b4 exams. woohoo~ we sang and sang. but eventually, i still need my nap. ha. was dozing off for some time. lalala. next to heeren for photo taking session. then to bk for dinner. we're all so hungry. omg. two by two left. only left with me, vans and jiawen. we stroll down the street. crapping and sorts. =)) and on the train, we started laughing away. so embarrassing. ha. but i'll still laugh as usual. =)
ok, gtg liao. needa wake up early tmr morning to paint. and then to celebrate carmen's bday. =) nites all. love ya all! =)

posted by Yan @ 8/31/2005 11:13:00 PM 0 Comments

woohoo~~ evening!! went to yishun. met wk. then we went starbucks. intended to settle down there to study. but in the end, after i finished my caramel, we went to bk. haa. again, we had some food. and after doing one qns, we decided to go town to study. haa. alright, we arrived at mos. then CS came. followed by his team member and his cg. so crowded right. i did some qns. and time flies. it's 7plus. papa went for ear piercing. woooo~ went home. and now, i'm home blogging again. haa.
tmr:: teachers day celebration. but lessons still on. there'll be a class party. =/ then we da gals will go town to sing!!! yay! i guess this would be the last outing for us till after o's. anyway, looking forward to it! =))
arghh~~ i need help tmr. i dont wanna bring that board home. it's not big. but neither it's small. someone just help me la. which gentleman? ha. or a lorry uncle also good.
alright. i shall go listen to songs and chat b4 i get on to studying again. nites all. love ya!

posted by Yan @ 8/30/2005 10:29:00 PM 0 Comments

morning people! i'm at home. wasn't feeling well in the morning. so decided to rest at home. now feeling better. will go study soon liao. ha. early in the morning i was laughing off. by mr ee rong. shared with him about my dreams and we drifted till UM12. being a leader of one of them. ha. thats really funny. it made my day. and i shall study even harder. and happier. nowadays, i seemed to love studying. doing worksheets and everything. thank God! and ya, tmr aces day cum teachers day celebration. how will it be? boring. anyway, lessons will be in too. ha. all the best to me. i'll turn up. cos of the maths period. =) i'm loving maths. but i just cant memorize the formulas. help me ginko nuts!!
alrite. gtg. blog again later. take care all. lets jia you for our exams! =)
love ya!

it's noon. and i'm blogging again. so bo liao. but i just cant help from blogging. after seeing the things happening which i dont even know. haii. i wondered where had the friendship gone. just like this and it's gone? it's really a pity. i wished we still had that kinda communication and catching up with each other though we're at diff schools and places right now. but it seemed that as time goes by, u've forgotten me. and i've not. seeing it just gone like this. i feel like crying.i dont wanna see this happening. someone just cheer me up alright? and i think i've lost my source that made me laugh. it's no longer you. it's myself. and i shall be independent and not fall so easily. cos i know, you wont be there to catch me when i fall anymore. i shall be strong. i'll be fine with you not being ard. dont be mistaken ppl. these people are really my good friends. i'm just sad to see things gone the way i dont want it to me. *tears*
sometimes, i do need someone to be there. we all need. which is true. i need a shoulder to lean on. but somehow, when i thought it's there, the fact is not. what a disappointment to myself huh?
just let me go. when you wish to. cos i know. i meant nth anymore.
well, i'll be fine soon after a laugh. =)
i wanna eat that mudpie. omg~ so tempting.
yes, i found someone to acc me to study! yay!
out to mugg. miss me ppl. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/30/2005 11:48:00 AM 0 Comments

yeap, didn't update ytd. haa. alright, ytd was a sunday. and of course, my fav day of the entire week! Pst Ulf was here ytd for service. =)) and the Word was so GOOD. it's about dreams. =) actually, i had the dream of being a leader someday. haa. actually everyone would want to have that kinda dream. basically, everything was fine ytd. fellowship was fine and everything was so =)). except for something. well, i shouldn't add here to spoil my own mood. ha.

ok, for today. school as per normal. and i think i was playing with the hammy for abt 2-3hrs the whole day? ha. it's so really very cute!!!! it's so tiny miny small. i wanna touch. but dont dare to touch. =/ anyway, it's really so so so cute! considered buying just now. calculated the price and everything. it's pretty ex laa. so decided not to keep one, in case die, worse right. and now A&B, i shouldn't be spending so much money too. for after school prog, so fun. we had a nice lunch in the art room kitchen. it's just so.... i just love the ppl in art! =) made my day. =)
evening:: met with pris to study tgt. and we did ok? but we chatted too. ha. it's just updating alright. and we're meeting up after so many months. then ze wei came. wow, he's just a good gangster. ha. a gangster. but smart. good in studies. and a very gentleman guy. woohooo.. too bad gals, he's attached. =) ha. but it was fun listening to his stories. shall meet up soon again.
and conn, wanna meet u!! =)))))))
alrite. it's time to get on with my chem tys now. nites all.
love ya! =)

posted by Yan @ 8/29/2005 11:02:00 PM 0 Comments

it's a pretty day today. =) it's sat. and therefore, cgm!! yay! always looking forward to wkends. woohoo~~ tmr's first fruit alrdy! so excited. today's msg was great. and of cos, fellowsjip was pretty good too. yes, Pst Ulf is coming tmr! and surely will overflow one. and i'll be taking west. pray that everything will go well. =) and of cos, the msg will impact lives.
it's late alrdy. it's time to go sleep now. should have enough rest for tmr! yay!
nites all. love ya!

posted by Yan @ 8/28/2005 12:53:00 AM 0 Comments

i just hate the feeling i'm having now. or should i say since ytd? omg~ i was so easily irritated. and today, i practically din smile at all. i wanna smile. and yes i did. i forced myself to. cos i dont wanna show ppl my dull face. and when i dont smile, i appear fierce. =/ and i'm really feeling so dull. arghh`` to some ppl: just shut up when u're in front of me. or should i say pls watch what u're talking to me. i'm gonna be mean. dont irritate me or you'll know my power!!! shoo~~!! ha.
lesson, school everything was so dull. argh. and today. everything almost was spoilt. but anyway, gd job. lets be better the next time.
the weather is so hot now. -sulks. but nvm. i'm gonna be out for movie soon. ha. i've got a date. hopefully the later part of today will be better. pray.
i wanna smile. let me smile alrites.
nth else more to post for now. will share again tonight. =)
yes, i rock. and she rocks too. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/26/2005 03:13:00 PM 0 Comments

i am feeling so!!! omg. dunno how to describe. argh. nvm. i wont care much anymore. wont think much too. just leading my live.
omy~ the auntie is singing the song. arghh.. my tv gonna spoil liao. hurhur. so funny. i had a long day. don wanna say much. reading that totally spoils my mood. i wanna go laugh the roof off now. woooo``
I ROCK. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/25/2005 09:06:00 PM 0 Comments

i've cool down. i was pretty hot just now. and i mean real. had a bath with tears and freezing water. which is causing me flu now. but nvm, at least i get cooled down. the story so long. i don wanna mention it again. said once. and i'm fine now. thanks to someone then. my eyes so swollen now. arghh. plus cold, think tmr no sch for me. shall stay at home study if i really aren't going. the choices of schools next yr really left me so confuse and stress thinking abt future. i really dunno. aiyooo... well, maybe i'll go jc if i can get those pts for it. or maybe poly then to NIE. might join teaching. i'll be a nice and friendly teacher. =) might be watching maid tmr again with cg. i dunno how many interested. hope everyone's enthu abt fellowship-ing on days other than wkends. and fri, there's a date for me on that movie again. ha. will be watching it 3 times?? woohoo. i wanna meet up with conn soon. we've been pending for so long. will make that happen. =)) i'm so tired. eyes so pain. lalala++
nites. miss ya all.

posted by Yan @ 8/24/2005 10:59:00 PM 0 Comments

another normal tue. the investiture was like. need so grand one meh? aiyooo. a lil too kua zhang, i feel personally. ha. i know some others felt that too.
so happy that somebody actually dreamt abt me. haa. shall not say anything else more. =) i'm so shag now. simply stressed out. my brain is not functioning. just cant memorize the text. omy~ help me. i need ginko nuts. mrs lau said that it'll help improve in remembering things. ha. i shall try it. =) i need more brain cells! art: 8 A2 boards and the coursework due next fri. i'm totally being squeezed dry.
i'm just so excited for next wk!!!
alright. needa go study now. chill my classmates. we can do it. =pp
love ya!

posted by Yan @ 8/23/2005 05:58:00 PM 0 Comments

yay! i watched the maid. haa. i didn't cry. i didn't scream so much. i think i screamed twice only. and i didn't pinch hazeeq. that's close. lolx. yes! i didn't go all this. those who thought i'll cry, heex, i din. =)) so proud of myself that i was so brave. but actually, i was closing my eyes. or should i say i peep through my fingers which were covering my whole face? wahaha. and was messaging that kept me looking down at my phone. lalala. i admit. =) anyway, thanks hazeeq for watching with me.
art due in a few days time. and i'm only 3/5 through. haii. gotta hurry up and complete it soon. all the best to me. =))
there's so much hmwk to be completed. and the test on impact analysis is on thurs. yet i know nth about it. completing lost in the topic. gosh. save me~
prayer mtg tmr. will be ushering too. woohoo~ i'm still wondering if i can make it in time. art might just take up all my time. hopefully i can.
alright. i wanna move on to do my hwmk now. and watch tv later. heard that korean show is nice. by my daughter ah xing. haa. just tell the person i support him ba. lalala. then he'll be happy. lolx.
-smiles. i love all of ya. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/22/2005 08:27:00 PM 0 Comments

lalala++
i'm still smiling and happy till now. cos today's sunday!! =)) sy rogers came. woohoo. i love the message. it meant alot. abt a healthy relationship. ppl who're interested, may ask me for the pointers. will be willing to share. -smiles.
communion today too. yay, gotta serve for communion after quite some time. and i suppose next week will be our duty. yes! next duty, this tue for prayer mtg. yippee! =) crazy me. so fan today. haii. how how how??? only one person and God know what i talking about. haii.
went dayi house today. she was home late. and i was left waiting alone. haa. but just one kind soul la. lalala. anyway, soon they came back. ha. fellowship with them. and now i'm back home. =)
i wonder why ppl always wants to have a short memory of happiness rather than to look for a long lasting and which will be filled with happiness for that entire life? it's not that there's no forever. i believe in that. it depends on how you choose. is he/she the correct one for you? not in a hurry, but just taking my time to find out. anyway, i'm only 16. loads of time. haa. i dont wanna have short happiness but long sadness and hurts anymore. i'll wait patiently. for those who've found, all the best. pls maintain that relationship. keep it going. =) and make is a happy and fruitful one. gonna get on to do my hmwk and stuffs. panda tmr! haa.
nites all. love ya all! =)

posted by Yan @ 8/21/2005 10:22:00 PM 0 Comments

what a long day today again~ tiring too.
alright, went to NTU for combine cgm in the morning. arrived slightly later than i'm supposed to. the mtg was good. ministered to the ppl who wanted to be cgl in future. but why?? why didn't i respond and i have to stand there to hesitate? i was puzzled after everything. i thought i once was so wanting to be a cgl in future. what happened? not that my faith is gone. dont worry ppl. =) is just that i need to find my calling. i dont want to make a decision now. yes, having a vision is good. but, i love ushering too. and if i can, i wanna be a cgl and a future usher leader. just let me think through. and wait for the calling.
after that, went to town. we made it a cg fellowship. in the end, how many went? me, CS and bro aaron who joined us later. why is it that having a cg being together so difficult? all sorts of excuses for not coming along. we're a cell grp. why cant we just be like other cgs who'll wait for their members after svc? go somewhere out of BEST coffeeshop to fellowship? c'mon, we have to be radical. lets make an effort to build the relationship among us alright? ppl are falling apart, not coming for mtgs and even services. lying to their own members. why? we have the trust. but do u betray that trust? hopefully not. i wont too. haii. it's just disappointment today. for one yr in cg, there isn't any time we get together to really fellowship. can we do it? make it happen?
ok. move on. next, we went marche after they arrived. both of us didn't eat as we had our dinner at MOS earlier on. so we played some games and sorts. then we went to cine for some drinks. time flies. it's alrdy 10plus and my phone's ringing. went home first. and now i'm back.
alright, tmr serving for communion and greeters. planned to take church bus tmr so that i can do my hmwk in the bus. haa. more convenient. lalala. thank God i found my lunch kaki. if not, my lunch will be gone again.
now, is the time for sleeping. my pillow, bolster, blanket are all ready for me to hug them. gtg. nites all.
love ya. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/20/2005 11:24:00 PM 0 Comments

woke up from my nap. here once again. dinner's gone~ no kaki. for ur info, i dont have meals alone. it's so lonely. i rather go hungry. hai.
go ahead and do what you like. i'll bless you. jia you! reason for getting kinda frustrated over the movie that moment is becos i dont want to be used as a 'need' for you to go with them. is like~ u dont go, they wont ask me. how sincere are they man. i'll find my own kaki. or i wont watch. thanks anyway.
cindy: i know u want me to go. i cant go. i'm busy tmr. sorry.
sucha lonely night. where're my playmates? my ppl were out of sight. i'm so lonely and bored now!! dont wanna sms anymore. it seems like i'm so troublesome and sucha disturbance.
i'm getting frustrated again!! omg~ what's wrong with me. arghh` just shut me from outside world today.
gone crazy~
maybe this shows that i have to study then. =/

**only lonely~~**
it's ok. God is with me.

posted by Yan @ 8/19/2005 08:03:00 PM 0 Comments

woohoo~ i'm home early today. haa.
by right should be home much later. but i'm extreme tired today. let me off~~
back from revival mtg. haii. lots more to be improve. all the areas. haii. sad sad.
didn't really get a gd nite ytd. haii. cos of some personal reasons la. i know that you know i care. but nvm, it's ok liao. haiii. hao xin mei hao bao. ask then go off. tsktsk.
my day wasn't well at all! shouted at the beginning of sch. not in good mood ok. anyway, i'm ok now liao. today mum cooked so much as offering. i dont wanna eat!! and i know the food will be for dinner too. =/ gonna go out for dinner. any kaki?
i wanna watch the maid!!! no kaki too. so pathetic. anyone free just call me. lalala. i'm in low mood now again. haii haii haii. smile smile smile!! like ytd was so great. i laughed so loudly instead of just smiling. haiiiiii.
bye all. gonna catch my nap. see my school mates on mon. see my cg members tmr for combine mtg! and my beloved usher mates on sun for communion! lalala.
noon noon!

posted by Yan @ 8/19/2005 03:22:00 PM 0 Comments

haa. what a hectic day today.
lessons in class were fine. the climax came when mr ong distributed the TODAY IN SINGAPORE book. haa. we began signing here and there. we all became some famous star at that period of time. woohoo~ and it goes on to art after school programme. =)) fun!
multi-tasking. sms-ing and painting at the same time. plus laughing and talking. woohoo~~~ so cool yea? lolx. yea, cool till i got my uniform full of paint. eee.. but the colour is nice. yellow mix red. then turns out a lil yellow. and i became crazy at that moment. i was laughing so loudly at my own plight. anyway, i changed into my t-shirt. so wasn't a laughing stock to the ppl outside.
karen:: arghh`` see, think of me too much. hurt urself and and sneeze so much. haha. and i also got my blouse dirtied. =/ all becos i was laughing when u said u thinking of me. haa.
lobb:: lalala. i wont laugh at you la. haa. eye infection+pimple in eye. what a special case. anyway, take care!!! =))
cindy:: dont worry. =)) i'm ok with it. haa. past is past. dont feel guilty. there wont be any grudges. there'll only be blessing from me. lalala. enjoy ur movie on sat. =) wont be joining u guys. will be busy on sat. so sorry. i'll find my own kaki. hee.
today was just such a nice day. it's cooling~ raining over here.
revival mtg tmr. yay!!! finally after 2wks. woohoo~ and it includes more songs. p&w session!!! gonna clear my throat. *ahem*
haii, gotta bring home my artwork tmr. so big. so heavy. how how how? i need a lorry. anyone drives lorry? haa.
i'm smiling at everyone. grinning at each msg i received from everyone. and laughing at my own plight and others. lalala++ i'm so happy. =)))) *chin long long*
love all of you!

posted by Yan @ 8/18/2005 05:45:00 PM 0 Comments

hmmm.. it's quite a short day in school.
was so tired and so went home right after sch.
cooked myself spag with prawns!! heex. then off to zzz.
was so tired. then went to aunt's hse give her some food which mum made urself!! yummy~ she likes it too. =))
and again, a big bag of clothings. wooohoo~~ i'm unpacking again. and discarding the ones i dont want. i'm throwing some which i haven even wear once. my wardrobe is full now. =( i need another one to contain all.
then, ran to mrt station to pass bro aaron the discs. wow, what a night exercise for me. haa. actually its ok. i'm late. =/
somehow, the person who always makes me smile gets rather upset. and i was upset too. cos i have to bring myself to smile today. =(( hopefully everything will be alright soon. cheer up! i need my smiles~~ jia you! (=
now i realise that actually encouragement is VERY impt. encouragement shows that the other party cares to think of ways to cheer u up. and to pull u up when u feel that everything is not going ur way. life should be this way. thats why, we must have real, true friends who'll be there to stand by you. i have. do you?
i love to encourage ppl when i have the chance. becos, i dont pay full attention to every single one. i'll only be there when they need me and find me. so ppl, feel free to call me, i'll pay attention to you. =)
alright, gtg. needa study a lil more then zzz.
nites all. love ya all!

posted by Yan @ 8/17/2005 11:11:00 PM 0 Comments

lalala++ that earlier post can be deleted. haa.
i'm feeling normal again. =))
that somebody still got the way. lolx.
anyway, i'm happy now. dont worry guys.
thanks my dear shiqin. =) love ya!

posted by Yan @ 8/16/2005 09:40:00 PM 0 Comments

just get off my back. i'm feeling so frustrated alrdy.
i dont need you, that whoever to instruct me what to do abt my life and future alright? and dont always think that i cant beat you in academic wise.
wake up! i'm not that weak neither that i need to listen to ur so-called advice. go away! i dont need you ok. back off``

nobody knows who i feel.
someone just come cheer me up. i know its hard. its hard to see me with my most natural smile. i've been putting it off with some fake smiles. or you wont see my teeth too.
save me~
i wanna smile again. naturally.
i needa smile again. just like i always did.

posted by Yan @ 8/16/2005 07:08:00 PM 0 Comments

waow! it's just another happy day!
just back from sun plaza. caught wedding crashers. was so 'dangerous' haa. it's NC16 and i'm not even near 16 alrite? there's still a month to that month. woo~~ yea, its a nice and funny show. haa. but its meant for the sixteens and above. dont sneak in like i do k. the feeling of sneaking and letting my friends smuggling me so openly wasn't that relaxing. lolx.
school was alright. its just another mon. but smth different was my classmates are revising on their own. hooray! lets chiong k 4e2. and of cos, to all the graduating classes. lets jiayou!! =))
kinda skipped art again. arghh`` just becos i dont wanna pang seh her. if not she'll grumble again. haa. anyway, it's exciting to get into the theater. lolx.
btw, i sensed that that someone wants to tell me something. i have no idea of what it is. can u pls let me know if u're reading? i think u know who u are. u're a smart person, just like me. =) let's be frank alrite?

**i want my tauhway!!!! lolx. i've got cravings for it now. hurhur~~ *gulu gulu*
next show coming up: the Maid. woooooooo~~~
well, i gotta go mug but i'll still stay online for the time being. talk to me. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/15/2005 05:15:00 PM 0 Comments

it's sucha long day today!
it's a happy day too! =)
i smiling all the way. haa.
ok, went to church.
was a lil late when reporting for duty.
so sorry my leaders who're thinking where am i.
yay! i've got the best usher award. haa.
anyway, all of u can be one!
step out in faith. and release ur potential. it'll be recognised ok?

ushers of section 11! all da best! lets all be best of the bests yea! we can do it!
after that, went for some recycling. then fellowship with my cg.
so happy to see more ppl at the table. i was delighted. lets maintain that kinda spirit k? =)
went back church to see what can i help out. then was called to go up for debrief. it's my first time attending such debrief. woohoo~ i din got any scoldings la. haa. but actually my zone was not well managed. i've got one empty seat!!! =(( anyway, it's over. chill`` i'll do it better the next time. =)
so kelian ah meng and ah bui, gotta wait so long. i'm so guilty. arghh` thank God u two din really show me unhappy face la. haa.anyway, we had out dinner at best again. and this time i was so smart at saving money. haa. ask them. =)
thereafter, got tricked by that ah bui again. where's the tauhway!! in the end ended up at tamp for dessert. =/
my phone is so~~~~~!!! feel like throwing it against the wall!! arghh. let me down at that crucial time. haiz.
mum called me. and i didn't know. so she called my cgl. then cgl called sect ic. sect ic called my team ic. team ic called dave. and that was then i know i had 11 missed calls!!! haii. sucha letdown!
well, thats kind of ah bui to do his duty. haa. was protected till my doorstep. mum was rather calm alrdy. and i explained to her nicely. everything's ok now. thanks everyone yea.
i gtg bath then zzz. schooling tmr.
take care guys! love ya all!

posted by Yan @ 8/14/2005 10:44:00 PM 0 Comments

omy~ it's so late now and there're still ppl singing ''stand up for spore!''
end soon pls. i need my sleep!! arghh`
anyway, thank God that i've received one whole bag filled with brand new clothes. woohoo!! they're from my godsis. real one la. haa.
cgm today was gd though it's not the whole cg. anyway, we'll be fruitful.
by this yr end multiply k? w125.
lets hold on to each other. =)
gtg rest now. will be serving tmr. woohoo~ i'm so excited. abt tmr's service and mon's show!! haa.
nites all. love ya guys. =)

posted by Yan @ 8/13/2005 10:46:00 PM 0 Comments

another day's gone.
today is a brand new day. =)
woke up at ard 9 and changed my skins and updates!!
tagboard's changed. tag tag tag me!!!
woohoo.. nice right? haha.
love it so much.
pink and black.
short post for this morning.
gtg prepare for lunch with cg then cgm later!
take care all! =))

posted by Yan @ 8/13/2005 10:37:00 AM 0 Comments

woke up from my usual nap.
got a new resolution.
which is.....
to leave the past behind and move on.
i'm gonna forget abt the eng oral.
and do better for my papers to salvage myself.
i change my desired school.
i'm not determined to go tp after looking thru.
cos the psychology they offer is not a main course thing.
i pray that by next yr there'll be a course for psychology studies.
but there're still courses i like in tp. =)
somehow, i just got interested abt mass comm.
min requirement for eng, b4.
and thats the very very min.
plus so many ppl wanna get into that course, the competition is stiff.
i really gotta strive harder now.
i shall wait no more.
now is the time and i shall speed to reach my destination on time.
mugg. study!
oh ya, i shall help jon in his chinese. =))
my destiny is in Your hands. Lead me, guide me o Lord.
i'll obey You and the plan You had for me.

posted by Yan @ 8/12/2005 11:51:00 PM 0 Comments

well, release of chinese o lvl results.
and guess what i've got?
i've got a disappointing B3.
i wanna get at least an A2!!
yes, i'm sure i gonna retake at the end of yr.
was so nervous and cried a lil while waiting for my turn to look at my results.
yea, it was b3. and miss tan told me to retake.
and i would.
i returned to my seat.
and cried.
it was to release my nervous-ness and disappointments actually.
and mum was expecting a distinction. haii.
sucha disappointment.
i wanna have at least 2 for chinese!!!
i'll work towards it. =)

actually, the result affected me a lil for eng oral.
i did badly.
unless a miracle happen and the marks will be higher.
pray!!!

anyway, no mood for anything else.
unable to go overnight prayer mtg today. =((

love ya all for ya concerns!!! =))

posted by Yan @ 8/12/2005 05:15:00 PM 0 Comments

went home straight after sch today.
as to prepare for studying.
and sadly, i saw my grandma on the floor after a loud bang.
she fell.
my heart was crying.
finally, i realised how much i love her.
i just couldn't see her pain, bleed.
and i can do nothing.
i'm such a useless grand daughter.
ah ma, i love you.

oh yes, i wanna catch the maid.
after watching the choco fac on tue.
haa, on movie drive.
AND it's A&B now somemore.
i should save ok. haa
i'll cut down on my expenses.

met CS to study.
and we did laa.
but somehow we side tracked to our revival grps and my ministry stuffs.
even did my briefing on my NEW notebook and ran thru with chong ma.
jia you for me!!! =))
i seriously feel that i'm loving usher more and more.
woohoo~ i'm so excited to serve.
i dont mind if i need to serve more. wahaha.
i'm so happy abt serving!
never will i wear out.
even when i have exams, i still wont take break.
cos i trust God, when i sacrifice and honour Him, He'll honour me back.
AMEN!

cindy, just as i said. let time heal.
dont force urself.
let nature take course yea?
``awaiting the maid.

tmr's fri!!! the end of the week.
but definately not an easy day.
mt o lvl results releasing tmr.
hopefully it wont affect my mood badly.
and after sch, a short prayer mtg.
followed by my eng o lvl oral exams.
wei wo ta qi!!! jia you =))

haa. gtg. catching up with my ex-colleague!!!
so cool~ he misses me and called me.
haa. nites all!! =)
_love ya all_

posted by Yan @ 8/11/2005 11:13:00 PM 0 Comments

it's morning now.
i'm still mugging.
trying to complete the maths worksheet. =)
having such a nice night.
after 'playing' with lobb.
yes, i still have gr8 friends ard me.
conn, jia you! =))

posted by Yan @ 8/11/2005 01:20:00 AM 0 Comments

this is my class!!!! 4e2 rawks.

posted by Yan @ 8/10/2005 09:34:00 PM 0 Comments

woohoo~~
went to chinatown for breakfast instead of sentosa.
anyway, it was a fine, joyful day!
firstly, met up with roy and CS at 9.45am @chinatown.
went yum cha took a look, wow! so many ppl.
so we went off to look for other dim sum stalls.
finally we settled down at the shop for dim sum.
it was fabulous!
but my stomach couldn't take much. =((
then went kbox the k-lunch thingy.
sing sing sing, ate ate ate. -Laughs.
after that, headed to orchard Lido to catch charlie and choco fac.
oh man, nice show! u guys gotta catch it. though i fall asleep at the front part. too tired la. haax
after the show, went down to find lala.
miss her so much!!! whee```
we left town. headed to yishun for dinner.
and the main purpose was to watch fireworks.
first time see yishun flooded with humans!!!
saw so many ppl!!! cool``
anyway, the fireworks were wonderful.
NICE! i kept shouting. haa. so excited out of a sudden.
was so tired.
got onto bus with CS.
the bus didn't move a little for 1hr!!!
lots went off the bus.
but i didn't cos i had a seat. haa. and there's air-con inside.
it moved until i msged lobb to ask abt tamp.
anyway, lobb, cheer up yea?
hope today will be a fine day and ur punishment wont be harsh.
sMiLe!!
for today:
went to amk to get my shoes changed.
in the end brought 3pairs. haa.
so i'm back now!
wanna go watch tv and mugg now!!
i miss you all!!!!
_love ya guys_

posted by Yan @ 8/10/2005 04:31:00 PM 0 Comments

whee`` i'm back to blog.
wasnt online the whole day ytd. miss me? *pukes*
haa. was so tired that i cant tahan to blog anymore.
reached home at ard 12am on sat after the 2nd night of FOP.
woke up at 6.30am, which was supposed to be 6am la, and rushed off to kallang to meet the usual to-SIS-in-the-morning kakis to report for church anniversary.
we're to report at 8am. whoo~
yea, i managed to get there on time and went over with lobb and BRO galex. haa. ppl wore blazer somemore leh......=p
We're 16yrs old!!! =))

took two zones at east arena. and was overlooked by eerong.
he's truely a kind person la. haa.
things weren't that really hectic.
thank God all the seats were filled eventually.
of cos a great thank you to the ushers serving at EA1&2.
we cant accomplish it alone. =)) thanks.
after that, had lunch with my cg at old airport road.
wow, so many ppl lor.
i felt lost in cg.... =((
hope to catch up soon.
reported back to SIS for duty for FOP.
actually my allocation was east.
and i ended up doing external external external traffic.
haa, meaning was sent to kallang mrt to help at the traffic there.
kinda fun actually. the ic is nice to us. haa.
then back to SIS. reported to sis beatrice. but i think i didn't really report to her la. din saw her. or if i did, i might not know too. no tag.
yea, was running for sis hope ytd.
fun! learnt alot of things too. =))
let me cut short.
took cabbie home with two other bros who're staying in north.
slept at 1am and woke up at 5++am in da morning today.
`hectic
packed everything.
took a bath and off i went again to sch.
was one of the first few to reach at the mtg place.
to my surprise, almost the whole class was 'on time' la.
hooray!! =)
national day celebration today.
everything was so fine.
we lost again.
but like i said, we won.
we got 2nd position. =)
and i feel that the class is really enjoying today.
thats gr8!
and off to NTUC to get the steamboat food.
watch the movie, one missed call. till i fell asleep on the sofa while the rest were screaming. haa.
i was really that tired ok? dont blame me.... =pp
then ate, played some card lame games like donkey. haa. very fun.
we're 16 and still playing the games we played when we're young.
i feel so happy cos we can hui jiu guo qu. hmmmm
after that, celebrated eugene's and waikit's bday.
i guess its their most happy time.
played with the cream and cake and stuffs.
fun. but cindy gotta go back earlier.
make sure we have a chalet and enjoy again!!!
Lamers`17 rawks!
love u guys.
till now.. i'm home. ready for bed anytime. =)
gonna go sentosa with some of ushers.
i need the sunlight to refresh myself!!!!
k la, this post is rather or should i say very long. haa.
will stop here.
take care all.
mug hard. and use this two days to relax urself.
refresh ur minds. =))

posted by Yan @ 8/08/2005 08:16:00 PM 0 Comments

managed to sleep. quite well though for the art camp. haa
i dont sleep that much too at home to compare to the sleep i had last night.
but i'm still very tired. =/

after camp, went bugis to get the skirt. buy till pek chek
couldn't find one which i really like. haii
but i did buy one in the end. hmmm.. $10. kinda gr8 deal.
rushed off to SIS for duty.
allocation: external traffic
it was so WOW!
so tired. my legs need some rest.
just got home. =)) finally can sit down.
tmr gotta report at 8am. =/

so sorry ying for not able to join u today.
was very rush. sorry sorry.
hope u had a nice day. =))

well, thanks for ur concern everyone.
i'm fine now. =)
i cheer myself up easily and after a cry i'm really ok.
dont worry now.

i need to go get a bath now.
smelly. eeewww.
and then sleep. zzz
nites all.
miss ya all.
love ya. ("v")

posted by Yan @ 8/07/2005 12:13:00 AM 0 Comments

went to concourse last night to buy the stuffs for the class.
got home at ard 10pm.
kinda late for a weekday.
anyway, it's ok.

for today:
happy that the shirts arrived.
and everyone were happy abt the design and stuffs.
planning for mon is quite ok for my side.
shouldn't be a prob.
that was the happy part.

here comes to the sad part.
i'm really very disappointed and upset.
i teared again. not for relationship. but for something else.
its my friendship.
lets try to imagine.
if someone, u treat as a gd fren who almost could understand u(might be how i think only) was unhappy with u becos u did not do what was expected. (at that point of time)
but the thing is that u did something for it, just that u cant turn up.
how will u feel?
and u expect the person, i mean the gd fren to understand, but the person dont. and thinks that i did the wrong thing.
i though after my sincere apology, everything's ok.
but it seemed not.
it seemed like i din do a thing AT ALL.
i dont wanna brag abt how much i did.
the time i spent.
no use. no point. for wat?
since i chose to take up the job, i'll do it no matter how far it'll go.
and perhaps i should state here, i'm not in-charge of EVERYTHING.
i'm ONLY in-charge of the attire and dressing up.
other matters regarding other stuffs, pls refer to the ic.
it'll do great help. thanks
i dont wanna explain further. it'll cause some hurts again.
i guess everyone will be against me.
hate me for all u want.
for i've given my best. and have no regrets in anything i did for the class.
just a last apology again. sorry. to whoever who needs this apology from me.
to trust me anot, to be my friend anot, frankly, i do not have the choice to choose for you. becos it lies in ur hands.
i wont force you or anyone.
but what i'll do will be explain myself.
hopefully all will be that understanding to at least listen to my part.
i wanna wash my hands of everything.
but it should not be that way.
i should continue doing it.
but if anyone feels that he/she could do a better job, or i'm totally not suitable for it, just tell me.
i'll gladly hand over everything to whoever who wants to do it.
end of the sad happening.

went to SIS for support, was in time. and no need to be send back home.
it was gr8. cos i love doing support in SIS.
it's another environment afterall.
but i got nth else to say after the story above.
nites all.
enjoy FOP for those going tmr.
i'll join u guys on sat.

anyway, art camp for me tmr.
wont be online.
pls take care.
cya u all soon!

posted by Yan @ 8/04/2005 11:14:00 PM 0 Comments

hmmm.. i've been feeling suddenly up and down today.
i almost blew my 'top' this morning when i stepped into the class.
i was on fire.
and glad that cindy knew i need a few min to calm down.
and i told her what happened after i'm ok.
anyway, i'm fine now. and the prob had been resolved. =)
just like i said, i wont be angry more than a hr. haa.

somehow, i felt that friends ard me are keeping stuffs from me.
is it that i seemed or made them feel i'm not trustworthy?
or just simply dislike me?
anyway, it doesn't matter.
cos i've got my own nice and gr8 friends.
love you all. =)

i'm going out in a while's time to the concourse to get some stuffs for the class.
kinda looking forward to the national day celebration. =)
though we might not be leading as the situation makes us think this way, i hope we'll not give up on the class. we'll try to do something better.
if we should lose, we still won.
we won the bonding and co-operation plus love from the class. =)
never did i complain abt the tiring days of planning, collecting the money and going out, finding where'll the necessaries be.
cos i know that, it's all worthwhile.
i love my class.
and i wanna have full trust on each of them again like i had previously.

feeling so hungry.
ate nth since i came home. =/
gonna grab a bite when i'm out later.

well, i gtg revise a lil more b4 someone calls on me.
btw, i realised that ppl are falling sick. like von and yingsi plus willey.
pls take care all! dont fall ill at this time alright?
haa, i'm still ill. been 1wk?
i need someone to take care of me still. =))
bye all! enjoy each day when we can breathe!
love ya!

posted by Yan @ 8/03/2005 04:15:00 PM 0 Comments

haa. i'm so happy.
i spent the whole evening laughing away.
omg` my jaws are so tired now. lolx.
i wanted to study.
and i did some notes la.
but that CS keep making me laugh so loud!
goodness gracious me. lost my yi tai somewhere in city today.
anyway, gotta know new ppl.
like lester and winnie. whee``

well, thank God that cindy found her wallet back.
but the money is gone. for sure one. haii.
but at least she saved $20 on the replacement of ez-link la.

national day is coming so soon!!
gotta go get the stuffs asap.
will get that ah huang to go with me. haa

i saw lorita today. oh.. i realised i missed her so much.
she's a nice person. =)

and i've yet to meet up with miss conn as we said so long ago. =/
miss her.

ok, time for bed!
everyone take care!
and rmb to sMiLez! =)
nitey nites.
_love ya all_

posted by Yan @ 8/02/2005 11:55:00 PM 0 Comments

i'm so happy.
at the same time disappointed and sad for cindy.

firstly, she lost her wallet. thats why i'm sad for her.
secondly, i suspect the thief is from my class.
yes, i should trust my classmates and they shoud be the last i suspect. or most of us suspect. but after what happened the last time earlier this yr, i became more careful with my valuables.

to the thief(though the thief might not read):
pls admit urself and return those stuffs alright?
if there's any prob in ur finances, pls voice out.
dont go to the point of stealing. it'll be a habit. a bad one.
and all of us should know that stealing is a crime.
i wont blame whoever who took it, but i'll try to understand why u took it.
but the owner might need the money inside and the stuffs inside.
pls return. dont let the whole class be so wary of theives in OUR OWN class alright?
i'm forgiving. =)

next, a blog was created for the gals. cool gals. haa. it'll be in my link. =)

i wondered where i got the motivation to study so hard. *wonders*
well, i'm thinking to drop POA again. becos, i tried. and somehow i dont find chemistry with POA after so much time of trying.
i'll think about it again.

next week SIS!!!
festival of praise!
church anniversary!
woohoo~ it'll be fun and memmorable.
i'll be serving east. haa.
friends, get a seat at east.
would love to see ur faces. =)

anyway, gonna go mug.
take care all.
hope to catch up with ppl whom i've been missing!!
love you all! =)

posted by Yan @ 8/01/2005 06:28:00 PM 0 Comments