Christ in Yan

Goodness, Eileen's tag made me think of Shawn more. hahaha, seems like he is aunty sha shou! he's so so so so cute! i was praying so hard last night during the announcement of finalists, and he got in!!! HAHAHA. he's so CUTE!!! aiyoooooo.

My nephew really looks like him ok? i was shouting my nephew's name when i saw him on screen. hehehe, i'm crazy.

Anyway, i'm planning and planning activities. i pray that God gives me creativity and wisdom to plan things that are out of the box and not that ordinary. Planning activities that require minimum $$, suits most of the people's timing and likings are really hard!

Nevertheless, dont give up!

As i'm saying dont give up here, i think i've given up on someone. This person didn't respond to any of my cares or concerns. disappointed, and maybe hurt? well, i need some time to get myself back to get in touch with this person again... God didn't give up on me, i will not give up on this person. I need strength!!!!! =(((

Lessons tonight..... starting to feel life has been a routine. telling myself and visualizing the future can really motivate me to study hard! =p

posted by Yan @ 7/31/2007 03:12:00 PM 0 Comments

Cravings

I had so much cravings today. Probably because the weather is cold.. i tend to want to do some not so usual daily things.

Like i had craves for Stingray and Sotongs.. So i had them for dinner with my colleagues.

Now i wanna go KTV for a singing session!!! anyone anyone?

Missed the movie Simpsons with the CG today as i was supposed to meet my team for dinner, however, gotta postpone it. =) another time then.

Staying at home is good, parents wont say they didn't see me. hehehe.

Shawn thats in Superstar is so cute! just like my nephew!!! =p

posted by Yan @ 7/30/2007 08:53:00 PM 0 Comments

Busy happening weekend!

Usually over the weekends there wont be any entries, cos i barely have time for sleep too! anyway, let me begin with friday.

After work, i chiong-ed to bishan to get the Body Shop stuffs from Van. thanks to her, i've got 50% discount for all the items i bought, except the lip gloss that costs $20 as the full amount will be donated to the STop Family Violence/Abuse campaign. Working in this environment.. the more i should support this campaign la! Then to JW church for the rehearsal of The Voice.. It was fun! =p last yr for project runway was not involved in any plannings(escaped) as i was one of the models. The capacity of the leaders are so great!! They've put in so much time and effort to make things go smoothly! Not to say.. there're definitely scoldings for sure too. However, i felt it was a great job!

Sat, was the actual The Voice. We've got celebrity judges in our midst. The judges are, Eelyn Kok from Mediacorp, Ruth Ling and Careen! My duty was to make sure the projector runs well, stage things to be done nicely.. present flowers to the judges. all the way till 9pm.. laptop was in a crisis for a while.. so sad to see aaron operating on it, however, it's safe and sound now! thank God! My laptop has became and is still my baby since it came home with me! rushed to Bugis to get a gift in Mich's car. caught up with some bugis peeps while searching for gifts too. i miss the times working in Bugis.. hehe.

slept at 1+am on sat night after doing some admin and prep. despite Rach's calls.. i didn't wake up! i always can wake up easily if the phone rings, maybe i'm too too too tired! it was alrdy 6.20am when i woke up, the funny thing was i thought it was monday and rach may be in some emergency thats why she called me so early! after some time.. i realised its late for duty!!! jumped up and took cab to expo. hahahaha.

service was great. but was very sleepy.... didn't doze off though. deliverance service was good too! was busy serving, this year didn't felt the strong urge to get prayed for though. haha

went for fellowship with dan and zx at bedok. it was more like accompanying each other for lunch. anyway, it was still good! went home.. and i really fell aslp in the bus on the way to amk. so tired that i gave up shopping ard amk hub and went home.. fell into a deep long sleep... till this morning............ zzzzzz. too much slp can make someone sleepy too. hehe.

back to work! yawns, its Monday! looking forward to the weekends again!

posted by Yan @ 7/30/2007 09:45:00 AM 0 Comments

Human Development

Thanks everyone for your well wishes and concern over my health. yes i promise i'll take care of my body, the temple of God. i shall not be sickly, but healthy to do God's word all the time!

I cant blog at home, and i cant even view blogs at home. =( nvm, shall do it in office.

tried out video call last night with Peg!! haha, its so exciting! we shall do it more!! =p

talked to Rach last night too. finally.. its her turn to share her thoughts instead of me! however, i hope you wont share with me things rgd that person in future anymore! All the best to you! =p prefer to hear the good news. lalalala.

Human Development last night.. faithful readers of my daily life would have known HD never left a good impression on me. however, last night my impression changed! it's so interesting now! This happens when i look in their good side. learning about a development of a human, the life span.. how the foetus grow.. the effects.. do you know? when you are still not aware of your pregnancy, many things are going on in the womb alrdy! within two months, defects will be formed when you do not take care!

So, your future starts now! Lead a healthy lifestyle, dont smoke or drink.

YAY! i'll be going shopping with dear Anna this sat after GB before going for The Voice. =p

i really detest people who dont make good use of their handphones. whats the point of carrying one if you dont like to reply or answer call? i think, i'll just throw it away! ever since i had a HP, i never kept my phones far away from me unless there's a need to charge using one power point at the corner. I can be reached easily. Except when i'm in meetings or in very deep sleep. RAHHHH.

and i hate it when i ask questions and i'm ignored. getting the info you want from me, and when i asked why there wasn't any reply to me. isn't it selfish of you? knowing everything and me left there wondering. is it fun thinking that i'll wonder why? trying to make me think more or miss you? i'm sorry, i dont have the time to do them, and there is no need to. and i dont care what you want to know now becos my lifestyle is open for all to see. there's no need for me to hide my actions. If you were really concerned, thanks so much. But spare me from wasting my time next time.

Back to work! busy but exciting weekend ahead too. EW's THE VOICE COMPETITION THIS SAT! =p

posted by Yan @ 7/27/2007 09:13:00 AM 0 Comments

When i'm weak, You are strong

I think i have some health prob recently.. am rather weak in the body. experiencing migraine.. for the first time i felt so threatened by cars. maybe due to my poor vision caused by this headache, i cant see properly.

God still brought me safely to work. =) i really dont want to skip today's lecture again. if not i'll definitely take the module again next year.

anyhow, went duck tour ytd with min min. if anyone is interested, locals are having a discount of 40%. so i paid $20 less for ytd's. Thank God for helping me save some money!

I shall use the energy i have now to start working.. God is my Healer. AMEN.

posted by Yan @ 7/26/2007 09:21:00 AM 0 Comments

Blessed

It was super tiring the past few days, definitely today too. my eyes are really small now.. i want my big eyes back now!! haha.

One down, next due on this SAT, 28th July. God bless me. with all the upcoming events and things to do, i doubt i'll have alot alot of time to do them. but yes, TRUST GOD! The first assignment was not done very well.. however, i believe i'll do better in the future ones!

Duck Tour later and shopping in town with Min Min, my 7 yr old niece. =p

I am so blessed! despite this difficult time, i still give thanks to God for the people around me! My colleagues has been encouraging me.. gave me tips and helped me with my assignment.
FM to come and help relief me.
Siew for calling and checking if there's any prob with my health working out so late.
MUM! staying up waiting for me to reach home safely then passed me chicken essence to "bu".
Dad for also concerning so much even though he didn't say.. i know.

I can always link with my parents. one action, one phone call, one wink.. i know. hehehe. I'm proud to be their child!

Back to work. Half day today. HOHOHO.

posted by Yan @ 7/25/2007 09:25:00 AM 0 Comments

Stress

Current stress level : 200%

and i know my symptoms of stress, nauseousness and no appetite. THIS CANT GO ON!

Aunty Grace is so nice.. approved my time off immediately. i only wanted a few hours.. but she says i can take one whole day! leaving office at 11am to chiong assignments at home.

Stress level decreases to 101%

posted by Yan @ 7/24/2007 09:01:00 AM 0 Comments

Night study

Now i truely understand how hard it is to work and study at the same time. it's really stressful, i dont deny. it has been so long since i've experienced stress. Fighting the devil now.

The devil speaks : "Young lady, you should pack your stuffs and go home rest well. You can take urgent leave tmr and take the time to do your work. "

XY speaks : " I dont want to waste my leave. this is only the first module and i have to take leave to do it. it'll become habitual gradually. "

Devil : "It's ok. it only weighs 20% of the total marks. just dont hand in lor."

XY : it may be little, but its alot still!

Devil : "you hand in late for a few days lor.. wont get Zero la. Just get a passing grade and get your cert, no need to do very well one"

XY : "Cannot. i must hang on and do it well! "

GOD says : "WITH ME NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! MY STRENGTH AND WISDOM IS WITH YOU! DON'T GIVE UP! JIA YOU! XY SHALL BE THE HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL, ABOVE AND NOT BENEATH! YOU ARE NOT FIGHTING THE BATTLE ALONE, FOR I AM WITH YOU YESTERDAY, TODAY AND TOMORROW, NOW AND FOREVER!"

AMEN! Jia you to me! =p

Thanks to FM so i can get my drink after sitting at the same place with no water, go to toilet not worrying the laptop will be gone or seat taken up.


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in the christian version, i'm last minute hugging Jesus's leg. am currently at AMK Park Mac doing my assignment. but 3/4 of the time i'm looking ard and not doing my work. haii. DISCIPLINE! i must be kingdom motivated!!!

thank God for providing me a table with power plug. in this new Mac, there's only 3 pathetic power plugs.. and i managed to get one of them! PTL!

rach says i'm quite emo nowadays. am i? i think so.. maybe. lol. but i'm still fine!

restless, tired. sleepy. but HANG ON, for what i've chosen and decided. when i wanted to sign up for this course, i should have known this will happen. PERSEVERANCE!

posted by Yan @ 7/24/2007 12:00:00 AM 0 Comments

Ups and Downs

The past few days was like..... crazy? there were ups and downs. and even now, i'm feeling so down too! stress!!!

let me start recounting from last thurs, as i've blogged briefly what happened on thurs... think to sum up, it was a sad.. shocking.. sudden.. thing to happen. hmmm. i didn't expect that to be so fast!

on fri, was on MC. nauseous since thurs and yea.. wasn't feeling well. however, went to family chalet in the noon.

sat was another crazy day. lecture in the noon, then back to chalet.. so many guests! i simply just kept myself in my room and start feeling stress over the assignments due THIS WEEK. which i haven't started!

anyway, yes. sun.. to Expo from chalet. finally i experienced once travelling to Expo from the east. hahaha. cab fare was like half price of usual. IT WAS A MAD SAD DAY!
Meetings all the way after service. i think i've lost count of how many i attended.. told Roger my decision.. sad, am very very very sad. =(

I am closing a chapter of this new life, and starting another. Introduction started in Aug 2004 when i first came to CHC. Chapter One unfolds when i committed myself to UM. and.. this chapter that lasts 2.5years is coming to a close, as soon as one month. To sign off chapter one is a GOOD THING! but.. its so hard to just close it. the labour.. the seeds that i've sown. the relationships built with people around. the treasured friendships i've made in Section 11. G4S2.. things that i've learnt like leadership skills, interpersonal skills.. confidence to speak in front of crowds.. WOW! yes, i am who i am now, UM played the biggest part along with God.

Imagine i've lived my christian life with UM since a young christian.. now that i've grown up and finished my "primary school education", i need to move on to greater heights. Although i know that someday this will happen, but i never thought it will be so soon, and sudden.
God really has His ways of revealing, confirming. hmmm.. dont know how to describe my feelings now. 94 is so nice to encourage me to be excited for whats coming up next, and i am really excited! but with the emotions attached to this big family of servants.. i cant.. leave with a smile without tears.

Back to work first.

posted by Yan @ 7/23/2007 10:27:00 AM 0 Comments

Rants

Office has been receiving prank calls for the past few weeks by the same person. yea, indeed some people have nothing better to do. this person called using different names everytime. i must say this person is really creative to give different stories, mimicking a young boy's voice, calling as a man, speaking like a woman.. the stories described by my colleagues who handled this person is so funny that i cant stop laughing. As much as this person can trick us twice, we're still smarter. Tracking back the records of conversation, its indeed prank calls! wahahah!

There's still excitement at work somehow. Once in a while we always encounter funny "clients".

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I'm back from lunch with Jo. She is on MC today la. but we're alike, we hate eating alone.. we'll rather go hungry than eat alone outside. went supermarket to look for the necessities for the chalet starting tmr! unable to help her out alrdy.. was supposed to organise games for the kids. but looking at my schedule for this weekend.. i think its QUITE impossible.

Tmr : work till 5pm. Makeup CG at 7.30pm-9.30pm at Tamp. Reach chalet by 10pm earliest when the nuclear family dinner is over...... =(
Sat : wakes up at 10am.. when no kids will be there for me to play games with. Prepare for sch at 2pm. Unable to make it for sat svc, lecture ends at 5.30pm. back to chalet.. 7pm, BBQ and Buffet.. no time for games for kids.
Sun : leave earliest to Expo for service.

No time for assignments.. no time for family. am thinking whats the point of going to the chalet just for sleep. wanted to skip lecture, but sat's lecture is a CANNOT MISS lecture cos its the last time lecturer can talk about assignments(20%). ARGHHH. anyway, i'm sure i'll be very blessed when i put God first in everything!

Just as i wanted to click publish post... i received a call from SX. ARGHHHHH! There's good and bad to the situation la. but definately its for the better. however, i really dont bear.............. =( let me cool down first.

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Am currently waiting for my cousin to reach Khatib. She's meeting me for lunch! hehehe.

Human development tonight..... yea.. i dont sound or look any excited. HAHAHA. i hate theories, but its a must in counselling. So i must learn to love it now! I like practical. and i wish the course can finish fast in our learnings so i can go do practicum and apply the skills!

Assignments due NEXT WEEK! Hallelujah, i haven't started. God give me more time!!!!

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Had the $2 meal from Mac this morning. Got cappu instead of fresh milk/milo. Like i mentioned before, i only drink Starbucks. haha, anyhow, i decided to try coffee from Mac. and yes! it works! i was so much efficient this morning than usual. I think the coffeeshops will have slightly more business from now on.

Oh yes! i completed the meeting minutes within a day! Praise God! at least i have something off my load which used to take days to complete. =p

posted by Yan @ 7/19/2007 12:03:00 PM 0 Comments

Bonding

Indeed, mums and daughters do have a special bonding. i dont know if you have, but i do! hahah.

this morning, as i was going out to get my brunch, i took my phone with me(usually i dont). somehow, i just felt mummy is somewhere near me.. so i called home, maid says she's out. called her hp, she's really like.. 2min away from where i was standing! isn't this amazing?! haha. this is not the first time alrdy!!

lecture ytd. it was quite fun. LC agreed cos i've got a funny teacher! lecture was on sense of worth. hmmmm... worth? HAHAH. ok.. forget it. and also some different topics la. it was useful! Asian tend to deny their feelings, especially males. if there are any male readers, u will agree with me. when you cry since a boy, your parents would have told you, Boys dont cry. familiar? since then... we dont really have the freedom to express the feelings within us.

now i dont blame guys who cant express themselves well.. i used to. hahah.

ok, i'm completing my minutes! HOHOHO.

posted by Yan @ 7/18/2007 10:27:00 AM 0 Comments

Sun has risen, all is fine! except for some puffy eyes.

Haha, it's Tuesday!!! nearing the weekends! and it's Min's Chalet this weekend! but i think, as usual i'll be as busy as ever. with lectures and services to attend. It's staff meeting today! i'm the minute taker.. just got reminded. hahah.

i wanna go KTV!!! lala~~ lalala~~

posted by Yan @ 7/17/2007 09:08:00 AM 0 Comments

Dumb

I should just keep quiet instead of sending smses wasting money and tears.

posted by Yan @ 7/17/2007 12:41:00 AM 0 Comments

Value

Yes, i caught the show Harry Potter. No comments, as i know nuts about it. Wasn't interesting, thats of course. but what's most interesting for today was i knew my value in men's eye.

and guess how much? One million. Not a very low low price huh? but too bad, i'm priceless. was rather hurt, again. maybe feelings aren't worth a single cent? However, these people helped remind me how God values me, and how much i value God. I know, there's no price to pay, cos Jesus has paid the price for a wretch like me.

You may be thinking, why am i acting like someone right? this is not an act, but its true feelings. yea, scold me for being too sensitive, but as a girl, i can stand up for my own feelings too.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

And yes, YOUR WORD IS YOUR BOND. guySS, u know who you are.

Labels: yet again..

posted by Yan @ 7/16/2007 11:54:00 PM 0 Comments

Xie Shun

I must mention this important thing. My friend, whom is the most important friend was one of the finalist in Teenage Icon! He's out from the competition, nonetheless, i'll always support him in whatever competition he may participate in future.

why is he the most important friend? without him, i guess my life would have been just as plain as u can think of. To me, he's the first person who put on the first stroke of colours to this black and white painting. He brought me to CHC, introduced me the world, Heaven and Earth. Recruited me into Usher Ministry, given me so much tips. Supported me, one of the most encouraging person i ever known. During his difficult times, he wrote me an email in the midnight to encourage me. However, i never really take extra effort in finding or solving the problem he was going through.

Life may be great for him now. As a uprising well known singer! I have faith in him and he really never disappoints people. Except that very fateful day that he decided to leave, HELLO!? not leave the world pls. well, thats the past.

All the best to you bro! Really hope to meet up with u soon! How i miss the old times!



He says the above picture is ugly. ok, one handsome one.

posted by Yan @ 7/16/2007 03:03:00 PM 0 Comments

Your word is your bond

Think the title is so straightforward already. If you really dont understand, i'll gladly explain it to you.

Thanks to Chan Lee for uploading the photos taken yesterday so quickly! You're efficient! I think there were about 100+ photos!? nevertheless, i'll still post them up here, not all. but the nice and funny ones. hehe. Not now too, tonight when i'm home. =))

posted by Yan @ 7/16/2007 02:07:00 PM 0 Comments

Burdened

Time to change mindset of things happening now. After some time when things dont change, methods should change.
God's wisdom and strength is so important now! Reminding myself to be relying on God.

Your will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.


Its Monday again! another new week and we're into the 3rd week of July! it's so fast!!!!! and back to work.. not really feeling blue today. had a little bit more rest last night. However, dark circles just wont go away. Ley Woon suggested i should put in my wishlist. Eye Gel, or something which can help me get rid of dark circles. LOL. yes, true true.

Section gathering at Marina South last evening. It was fun! great to see so many people gathered there. But have heard from the taxi uncle that the whole place will be demolished as they want to build hotels in view of the upcoming IR. that means... one less place for fellowship next time. =( Photos be up soon!

posted by Yan @ 7/16/2007 09:17:00 AM 0 Comments

Change is the only constant

Well, just felt like typing what i feel now after calling a friend, whom i thought my good friend to ask something. the feeling was... COLD. yes, change. i learnt in my course too, that human changes, and every little change can cause something to people around you.

I dont really know how to let this person know my feelings, anymore.

But all i can do is to remind myself, when i've got something new, they'll be the silver, while the old is gold. However, it differs btwn different people. Friendships, are more important than relationship. This is how i prioritise, not everyone think this way. Not discouraging people who have their partners, but i think ultimately i'll treasure my friends more.

Just sad that the friendship is not like a rock, but it wavers so easily. No hatred, no grudges. For you have done me no wrong. Neither did i.

posted by Yan @ 7/14/2007 09:08:00 PM 0 Comments

Blogthings

You Aren't Cutthroat

You definitely have ambitions and drive, but you also have integrity. You'll get where you want to in life, and you'll do it the right way. For you, the ends never justify the means.

You Are the Ego

You take a balanced approach to your life. You definitely aren't afraid to act out on your desires - even crazy ones. But you usually think first. Morals drive you as much as hedonism does. You've been able to live a life of pleasure... without living a life of excess.

You Are 89% Grown Up, 11% Kid

Your emotional maturity is fully developed, and you have an excellent grasp on your emotions. In fact, you are so emotionally mature - you should consider being a therapist!

Therapist? maybe in a few years time?! HEHEHE

You Are 46% Manic

You are definitely super charged, and your energy is infectious! Your mania is something to be proud of. You wouldn't be you without it. Just make sure not to give into that self destructive streak of yours.

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values. Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love. But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question. No matter what, you love yourself the most!

Yes God!

Your Life Is Worth...

$823,500

WAH! what a large amount. yes, may this amount is to be given to my parents when my husband is gonna take my hand! But then... i'm PRICELESS! wahahaha

You've Changed 52% in 10 Years

You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person. You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

oh?? am i????

Your Inner Eye Color Is Brown

You're smart, thoughtful, and the ideal woman for most men You are kind and easy to trust. Men open up to you like no one else. It's this inner warmness that attracts guys - and makes you an instant soulmate.

oh? is there such things called instant soulmate? hahah

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

Your Interpersonal Intelligence Score: 79%

Your Interpersonal Intelligence is High You are definitely a "people person." You enjoy spending time with others. You instinctively understand people, and you are both a good counsellor and mediator. However, there are definitely times when you've had enough. And that's when you cherish being alone.

Your Life is Better Than 69% of All People

You really have things pretty good - so stop a minute and appreciate how great your life is. You likely have a cheery outlook, supportive friends, and plenty to keep you happily busy. You are usually content - and with good reason. You have a lot to be happy about. So when things don't go well, remember that you have it better than most people!

You Are Tiramisu

Light and lovely, you pack a punch. You never overwhelm... but you always leave a lasting impression.

Just had tiramisu few days back... wahaha

You Are 24% Slacker

You have a few slacker tendencies, but overall you tend not to slack. You know how to relax when the time is right, but you aren't lazy!

yes... i find time to relax.. like now. lol

You Are 64% Feminist

You are certainly a feminist - whether you know it or not. You believe in gender equality, at least most of the time. You also believe there are a few exceptions.

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

YES I AM! lalala

so sleepy....

posted by Yan @ 7/13/2007 12:50:00 PM 0 Comments

New Friend

Yesterday's class was............ Boring, dry, totally stir up no interest. The way how the lecturer taught made it even more dry. was practically reading from the text.. and the longer ones she'll say, you all go home and read. haha. obviously.. everyone didn't like that kinda learning. the jokers were so quiet yesterday too!

What excites was.... I made a new friend! Her name is Youko. We were walking back to MRT station and suddenly felt hungry, so i suggested getting a burger to fill my stomach as there wasn't much choice left at 10.15pm alrdy! settled down and after saying my grace, she said hers, silently la.... so i just asked her lor.. which church she attends? and she replied CHC! PTL! indeed, there's a certain kuan in CHC members. From the first time she spoke(which is self introduction), i could alrdy sense this person is different! WOW! hahaha... and she also said the first time seeing me alrdy made her felt like i'm a CHC member. we're even in the same WYZ zone! too bad, she's moved to S1 alrdy. Anyway, nice to meet a new friend in the same family!

I'm so christian-fied. My class...... practically all are Christians and attends a church. ARGH! i must fellowship with the world! haha. Ard me are all the believers liao. Imagine workplace.. ALL christians. School.. ALMOST all, yes i know there are some not yet. Weekends in church, do i have to describe? haha.

But life hasn't boring at all! In fact, i'm always hanging around the most happening people! hehe.

Yea, made a new friend. Not forgetting the old! New friends are silver, old friends are gold! I'm missing Miss Ting Ting. She's one of the New Man's finalist! VOTE FOR HER. i forgot the code. but you can find her at www.newman.com. she's contestant 11. =p

time to get back to work. CGM tonight! HOHOHO.

posted by Yan @ 7/13/2007 09:13:00 AM 0 Comments

Time Management

I dont really think i have so much time to manage. Looking at my schedule.... i think its became pretty standard. was just chatting with WeiJun about fellowship. shall put up my schedule here.

Mon : Work from 9-6pm. Usher Ministry admin and follow up.
Tue : Work from 9-6pm. School from 7pm-10.30pm
Wed : Work from 9-6pm. Night tentatively free.
Thurs : Work from 9-6pm. School from 7pm-10.30pm
Fri : Work from 9-5pm. CGM at 7.30pm, till 10pm/Preparation for Sun's duty and GB lessons.
Sat : GB at PRCS from 8-12pm. Fellowship with CG/CGM from 2pm-4pm. Service 5pm-8pm. Dinner then Home Sweet Home.
Sun : On duty wakes up at 5.30am. Duty normally ends at 2pm. Then fellowship/home.

This wk's gonna be no rest i suppose? Sun after service there'll be Section 2 fellowship at Marina South! It's gonna be tiring, but worthwhile!

Notice i didn't even put slots for assignments. hahah. i really wonder how i managed to live by in such schedules, yes, by God's grace and strength!

Exlarging my capacity! God multiplying my time! =p


****This is why i dont like to be treated like a XMM........ to someone. WAHAHAHA

posted by Yan @ 7/12/2007 02:44:00 PM 0 Comments

SPAM!

You Are 21 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

WAHAHA! YES!! i wanna be 21 soon. lol. but sadly, a couple years more.

posted by Yan @ 7/12/2007 10:34:00 AM 0 Comments

Sabotage on Alvin

Haha, this morning as usual we had our office's devotion. It also covers the time that Avissa needs to get the flowers. hahahaha.

well, we passed him a bouquet of 3 roses and signed off as anonymous. as this colleague of mine is charming and may have attracted women.... we posed as a lady sending flowers to him. haha.

when he saw it he was really troubled. so LC and I quickly went out to get a cake to break the whole sabotage, was worried he call the anonymous to find out why. ahaha. after singing the bday song and blowing the candle, he still didn't know the roses are from us! the whole thing is so funny.

had our fun. now time for work and thinking where for lunch later to celebrate his birthday. =p

posted by Yan @ 7/12/2007 09:56:00 AM 0 Comments

Cousins!

went shopping with my cousins after work. my cousin is always so punctual. she called me at 6pm sharp as i was leaving office to ask me to town. haha, yea, so i met her and Jo.

Dinner at Ichiban Boshi, Wisma. A treat from Li. the food is not bad.. the price.. i think its rather reasonable for the place setting and food ba. definitely not a place i'll consider given my finances now. but its a nice dinner afterall. People i eat with do make a differenece in the taste of the food. LOL.

then was walking around. difficult time finding my blusher, the no brand one which i've used for a few years.. no longer in SaSa. think i gotta search in Metro on Fri with Eileen when i meet her.

Oh yes, i saw Meikit while shopping. So nice to see my pri sch classmate and she can call out my name at the instance we met! so glad so glad.

i've decided on how to relax.. i'm gonna bring Min Min out one day to play. hehe, Jo has agreed to let me bring her out. Min Min is my 7 years old niece. A very intelligent girl. Alot like me. =p i mean character.... i dont read encyclopedias and dictionaries when i was 7. LOL. what has the world done to these kids nowadays!

alrights, time for a shower then do the stuffs i need to do. Starbucks Ice blended Caramel with me, hopes it'll keep me awake for the next 2 hrs. =p

Good Night all! =p

posted by Yan @ 7/11/2007 10:53:00 PM 0 Comments

Relaxation

I want to go Sentosa for a time of relaxation and chill out. It has been such a long while since i do something light, apart from all the businessss.

just as i thought i'll be able to take time-off to go away from work on 27th July.. received a msg to take most of the ushering duties for The Voice. Initially, i didn't really want to take part in anything anymore.. and i know for sure i'll only be able to reach church at 7pm as there's lecture for me..

suddenly emoness turned on again. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

i want a day break!! HOLIDAY!

posted by Yan @ 7/11/2007 02:45:00 PM 0 Comments

Interpersonal Skills Lecture 2

Yes, last night was my 2nd lecture for the module. Great! Key point i think was Renewing the Belief system. It actually changes the whole cycle of things/routine that you'll always do.

Not gonna type more if not i'll start charging every reader for learning online! hehe, this shall be Xin Yan University. Cert accrediated by Xin Yan Pte Ltd. Am getting abit nonsencial. hahaha.

back to work!

posted by Yan @ 7/11/2007 10:48:00 AM 0 Comments

Pasta Lunch!

Yes, my dear friend brought me homemade pasta. he had a difficult time finding where's my office. hahaha, but still he found it! =)

nice pasta. so sad that he's gotta serve the nation this sat.. hmmm..

i'll upload the photo i took of the pasta. =)

posted by Yan @ 7/10/2007 01:46:00 PM 0 Comments

Pasta..

Not gonna take breakfast today. saving stomach to taste the unique pasta i'll get for lunch today. Thank God! eheheh. =p

posted by Yan @ 7/10/2007 09:32:00 AM 0 Comments

Lunch Treat

Yes, Boss is back finally after so long! She's blessed the office with lunch today! KFC and Canadian Pizza. woooohooo. and followed by Tiramisu brought by Avissa. the alcohol in the desert was quite high, that for two minutes i can feel my stomach burning. lol.. why didn't give me more so i can take a rest! hehehe

just completed my journal entries. am gonna do some readings then off to bed. school tmr!! have to miss two important meetings that also clashes with one another.

less talk, more work. Goodnight all! =p

posted by Yan @ 7/10/2007 12:21:00 AM 0 Comments

Thanksgiving

It was a fantastic service today, as well as yesterday. Indeed values taught in SOTM, is not an easy thing to be done. I remembered reading the Gospel when i just got saved, my discipler then told me to start with Gospels becos its easier to read. yes, its easy to read, but not that easy to understand. It takes Pastor 22 lessons to complete 3 chapters in Matthew. This series, is the one that has blown me away so much!

after service and all the wait for BS&PM to finish, CG went to NUH for visitation. Yi Wen, Dan's good friend was admitted into the hospital. Am not very sure of why, so i shall just keep the description short. spent ard 2-3hrs there with her, talking to her neighbour too. Yi Wen is only 16, and her neighbour is only 9 years old. when asked if she feels the pain with multiple needles on both her hands.. she said no. i suppose she's adapted to it.

Today was the first time i step into a hospital, ever since i know how to spell "hospital". and there were so much thoughts throughout the whole day. there're so many time we take what God has given to us for granted. God has given me a whole body, perfectly fine limbs and senses and organs plus so much flesh(hahah). walking past so many wards really made my heart cry. not pitying the patients, but i kept wondering to myself how much more can i do this life?

I dont deny there's always tendency to envy others of what i dont have. looking at another perspective, i'm so blessed. No need to envy anymore! wahahah. treasure my life, treasure others! i love you all my friends!

suddenly a song came into my mind..
One More Moment
Don't take too long to say I love you too to the ones you love
Cos time has a habit of slipping away..

just got informed that i'll be taking the position C2 next sun duty. i was like, WOAH! really shocked, but excited to take on the new position. given the opportunity, so must prepare well and perform! esp when its guest speaker, i'm expecting there'll be healing going on in service too. yes, it's gonna be so exciting!

time for bed! Boss is coming back for half days after her maternity leave. finally... i miss her so much. hehe.

posted by Yan @ 7/08/2007 11:11:00 PM 0 Comments

Friday CGM

hohoho. CGM this week is on fri. i just got home not long ago. am waiting for my hair to dry. dont really like using hair dryer to dry them, will make them more coarse.
i really prefer friday CGM. so we dont have to rush after BB&GB in school for CGM. then rush for service at Expo.
CG's gonna fellowship tmr before service. which i think it'll be more quality time spent. =)

i just rmbed i gotta prepare for tmr's Healthy Attitudes!! thank God Lesson 4 is a short lesson.

Goodnight all! Gotta wake up at 6am later. =)

Perfect DAY! all the 7s.

posted by Yan @ 7/07/2007 12:22:00 AM 0 Comments

Rather true quizzes

Your Sensitivity Score: 70%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You value generosity a fair amount. You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take. Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need. But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"! Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

almost every value to me starts with highly..... haha

You Are 98% Thankful

You're an incredibly thankful person, and everyone around you feels very appreciated. You inspire people to be more optimistic, forgiving, and grateful.

WAH! yes! thank God above for everything in anything!

You Will Be a Modern Bride!

While you aren't ready to throw away all wedding traditions, you want a wedding with a twist You're more inspired by celebrity weddings on E! than from bridal magazines Whether this means getting married on the beach barefoot or a mariachi band for the reception... Your wedding will be a blend of old and new - white dress cocktail, personalized vows, whatever suites you!!!

Yes yes... MODERN! not old fashion... though its still quite fun to be traditional.hahaha.

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others

You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking. You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together. You should major in: Counseling Environmental studies Law Social work Political science Nursing

Your Scent is Rose

Delicate, feminine, and soft Your personality is fresh and understated

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!

You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring. A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition. Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you. And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...!

WAHAHAHAA! hilarious. but who knows.

You Are a Bit Prissy

From time to time you can be a princess, but these days, who isn't a little high maintenance? You know what you want, and you're definitely not afraid to ask for it. (Just refrain from having a temper tantrum if you don't get your way!) There's nothing wrong with having high standards... as long as they're occasionally low enough to allow spontaneity and fun!

You Are Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"We saved the world. I say we have to party."

WAAHAHAHAHAH! this is more funny.

You Are Paper

Crafty and creative, you are able to adapt freely to almost any situation. People tend to underestimate you, unless they've truly seen what you are capable of. Deep down, you're always scheming and thinking up new plans. Your mind is constantly active. You are quite capable of anything you dream of. You can always figure out a way to get what you want. You can wrap a rock person up in your sheet of trickery. A scissor person can sneak up and cut you to pieces. When you fight: No one can anticipate your next move If someone makes you mad: You'll attack them mercilessly when they're unprepared

wahahaha..... last sentence... some people will understand. merciless attack!

Your Extroversion Profile:

Assertiveness: Very High Cheerfulness: Very High Friendliness: Very High Activity Level: High Sociability: High Excitement Seeking: Medium

All the highs..... HAHHA

You Communicate Like a Woman

You empathize, talk things out, and express your emotions freely. You're a good listener, and you're non-judgmental with your advice. Communication is how you connect with people. You're always up for a long talk, no matter how difficult the subject matter is.

Thats why men need to learn interpersonal skills too. hahha

posted by Yan @ 7/06/2007 03:39:00 PM 0 Comments

Overjoyed!

I'm overjoyed! overjoyed! overjoyed! happy happy happy.

Thank God that i'm living today to look forward to tmr! wahahahaha..
i wanna do my journal entries! but its working hours now.. so yes, better do my admin duties first.

anyway, i forgot to mention i've got joker funny man as lecturer. He's charming too ok... and Mum was like, crazy ah? first day smitten by lecturer? HAHAHAHA. how would i dare....

ok, great day today! cos there's CGM tonight. finally for once... W411 is on fri. hahah.

posted by Yan @ 7/06/2007 09:16:00 AM 0 Comments

Yes, i'm so excited! cos sch has started. and i've met new friends too!
Interpersonal skills today.
i love my course. cos its something relevant and something i'm very interested in! some quotes i think its really nice to post it here while reading my unit material.

A real friend is someone who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. -Walter Winchell

We must love another or die. -W. H. Auden

A friend is one before whom I may think aloud. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Don't walk in front of me
I may not follow
Don't walk behind me
I may not lead
Walk beside me
And just be my friend. -Albert Camus

A friend is a present you give yourself. -Robert Louis Stevenson

Make new friends
And keep the old.
One is silver,
The other gold. -Children's song

yea, above the quotes for my first unit.
No man is an islander. =)

Thanks to the friends around me becos my island has become a beautiful city. =)

shall not continue if not i'll rather give my blog url to my lecturer and ask him to mark my assignments and journal entries thru blogger. hahaha.

off to do assignments!

posted by Yan @ 7/06/2007 12:29:00 AM 0 Comments

Assignments

wahahahah.... i read my course notes and plans last night. and i spotted my ASSIGNMENT QUESTIONS!! =s

ESSAYS... at least 1200 words for 20marks and 2000 words for 40marks. WOW! English dictionary will be my best friend very soon.

lesson tonight.... anticipating though i've so much complaints about the essays. still hoping to get a new skill and more knowledge! esp, for what i wanna achieve in life, JIA YOU to myself! i saw myself getting grades like Ds(distinctions) and HDs(high distinctions) while going through how they grade!

Yes, do not give up. thats the spirit XY has! =p

posted by Yan @ 7/05/2007 09:21:00 AM 0 Comments

AHD Orientation

Took time off to go attend my sch's briefing in the evening.
went to get my module notes and text. costs me close to $100. haiii... yes. and the orientation was so boring. know what we did?

the students did nothing. and i really almost fell asleep while the staff was reading the WHOLE handout to us. i can say, no single word was not read.

took a glance at my classmates... erm, i think, and i'm quite sure i'm the youngest kid there. hahaha.... you will know what i mean la..

well, just pray and hope that time spent for this course will be fruitful! =)

first lesson tmr, interpersonal skills. phew.. gotta bring my notes.... =(

anyway, thank God i bought my lappy. all the assignments are to be typed out neatly. i need microsoft office now!!!!

posted by Yan @ 7/04/2007 11:50:00 PM 0 Comments

Your Attitude is Better than 65% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

Your Inner Blood Type is Type O

You are outgoing, gregarious, and well loved. And it's a good thing you're super charming... Because you also tend to be a bit flaky! Your confidence gets your far, and you always speak your mind. You are most compatible with: O and AB Famous Type O's: John Lennon and Elvis

You Are 42% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows. You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately. If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important. You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.

Am i??

You Are Somewhat Logical

Ok, so didn't get the majority of questions right But you did answer some pretty tough questions correctly Logic may not be your strong point, but you hold your own!

You Are Not a Cheapskate

When it comes to money, you're very fair. You're generous when you can be, and you never cheat anyone out of what they deserve. If you have the money, you enjoy splurging. But you never overspend.

wah... very true.

You Are 31% Vain

Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all. You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

this is also quite true.... lol

posted by Yan @ 7/04/2007 03:44:00 PM 0 Comments

The Voice Results

yes.. again i'm blogging about the Voice.

just read a msg from sx that i'm in the Top 10. but they're only choosing 7 out of the crowd.. and the top 3 are trained singers... Judges have commented i have good voice.. well, i should be very happy to hear such a news yea? however, got triggered in my emotions again.

anyway, i shall not give up singing as an interest. if there's a chance, try again next time lor. singing is meant to be a passion. however, competitions unleashes your potentials! =p

all the best to the people in Finals!

posted by Yan @ 7/04/2007 02:26:00 PM 0 Comments

Your EQ is 140

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

posted by Yan @ 7/04/2007 09:17:00 AM 0 Comments

You Are a Little Messy

You aren't the cleanest person in the world, but you're definitely not a slob. You clean up when you have the time, but you're realistic about what you can get done. Generally, you're pretty organized and tidy - though you may have a few hidden messes. You eventually get around to making things spotless, but you do it on your own schedule!

You Are 12% Shy

You aren't shy at all, in fact, you're probably quite outgoing. You are comfortable in almost any social situation, no matter how difficult.

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

The above results for thinking too much and imaginating. WAHAHA. i am laughing off my chair now.

Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman

Inside you've got the passion and ideals of a teenager And your intensity for life is what attracts most of the men you date You also like to party - and quite often you're the life of the party You've brought the best of your younger years with you... at least most of the time.

Your Heart is Feeling Safe

Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way. Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of. You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated Watch out for: Taking the people you're dating for granted

You are Sneakers!

You're an active girl, who's all about function You dress for the occasion - comfort comes first Your perfect guy? Someone who can keep up with you. You'll find him - but you might have to slow down to see him!

posted by Yan @ 7/03/2007 01:10:00 PM 0 Comments

Being a Mummy

just finished talking to two colleagues who're alrdy mummies about their pregnancy and delivery. i'm so excited!!!! hahaha. yea... imaginations run wild again. i used my long ruler and started measuring the length, asked how big is the baby, how it looked like and blah blah. it's so exciting lor. the joy of pregnancy, being a mummy!

then my colleagues brought me back to reality, there's still another 10 years for me to become a mummy. but.. cant help! am thinking alrdy! HAHAHAHA. i'm a siao char bor.

Ya! my mum is such a noble person. giving birth to 3 kids! all natural birth! being the first.. i was vacuumed out. HAHAH. i love her! of cos dad too la.. if not there wont be me. HAHAH. but mums are still the best! THANK YOU TO ALL THE MOTHERS!

am reminded of the joke Dr. Peter Wagner shared in both services. hehehe.

posted by Yan @ 7/03/2007 11:43:00 AM 0 Comments

it's Tuesday! i'm more awake than ytd. with all the work that i haven't completed ytd, i finished them shortly within an hour this morning. hehe.

no info about the prelims, so i'm not in. not that sad or disappointed anymore, but think of the bigger picture! this is a big big event which attracted so many unchurched talents! i'm sure one day, they'll be rooted too! however, life goes on. i should be putting more time and effort in my studies first.

tonight gonna be the "last" night of being a working adult only! I'll be a student cum working adult from tmr on! hohoho, rather excited now alrdy. Yes! to Shine in every area! so yea, spending tonight with the leaders in 4s2. dinner at Siglap area.......... =s not east not central. but for the fellowship and quality time that will be spent, i'm going! inconvenience shall not be an excuse, especially in Singapore.

Tmr's is sx's graduation.. clashes with my briefing in school that's from 6.30-7.30pm. am thinking..... which should i go? hmmmmm... one more day for me to decide. =p

posted by Yan @ 7/03/2007 09:29:00 AM 0 Comments

my office's waiting room has got a really comfortable L-shaped sofa. so yes.. since i had quite a heavy breakfast, i took a 15min nap on the sofa during lunch time. hahaaa. monday is always so tiring and sleepy.

am thinking of going out tonight.. but where? and do what? no more nice movies. have caught almost all the nice shows..

think i should go home and spend time with my family..

posted by Yan @ 7/02/2007 12:56:00 PM 0 Comments

Youth Day

it's youth day!
being a youth.. i dont have holidays. working adult now. =(

tears just rolled as the song, I Want to Sing is played in my mind too.

haven't recover from ytd. but, i FORBID sadness. RAHHH!

Xin Yan is a happy, cheerful girl! =p yes i claim i am!

what over is over.. so, let me start a brand new day, brand new month! with rise of GST. =S

2 days.. to less nights out. so i think i'll make good use of tonight and tmr night.

posted by Yan @ 7/02/2007 09:12:00 AM 0 Comments

was like quite disappointed in myself after the performance. haha.

but i'm fine now. came back home. saw dad and told him how i did. well.. not much responses from him but i know he cares about how i felt la..

and mum called home from grandma's house to ask me about the prelims round. when i said i did badly, she encouraged me! saying.. it's the first time. take this as an experience.

WOW! i'm so happy now. nothing can make me more happy than hearing words from my own parents. looks like they're supportive of what the church is doing. i think mum will encourage me to join singing competitions more. hahahah.

i love my family!
and my spiritual family! thanks for cheering for me! though i was really nervous for being the first performer.. but yes, your encouragements made me felt at least better.
thanks rach for your encouragements too. =)


however.. still disappointed somehow.. =(

posted by Yan @ 7/01/2007 07:06:00 PM 0 Comments