Christ in Yan

let me blog a little before i continue doing the human lamination. hehe.
office now.. and taking some time to blog and relax. i can feel that my eyes are crossed now after pasting and cutting the small little stuffs. but at least, i've got something to do than slack whole day...

hmmm, actually nth very interesting to share, or prob my mind is just blank abt what happened for the past few days. working and working. oh yes, ending work at 3pm tmr... due to the company's D&D which i'm not involved. so.. shall do something fruitful tmr.. prob play badminton with my bro. i need to exercise! fatty fat fat!!

Internal Traffic again this week......... i think, i must really learn what i'm suppose to know. if not, i wont be placed there for like 4times consecutive service duties. hmmmmm... still gonna serve with an open heart to learn new things though it's the same position, but i know this time is gonna be different! there'll be something which i didn't manage to learn the past duties!

anyway, gtg. so tired to blog also...............restless. *eyes half closed*

posted by Yan @ 11/30/2006 04:54:00 PM 0 Comments

work was rather fun and enjoying. started off with a bright sunny morning! then... comes a drizzle then rain. i really like rainy days when i'm home, time to sleep or nap. hehehhe. but definately not when i'm in office! guess my monitor caught alot of my carbon dioxide. LOL! aunty grace is so funny, and i really like my workplace people. met rachel for lunch as well. hehehehe.

some changes to the section. and i pray that my capacity will be enlarged! hopefully to the maximum in UM before i goes somewhere else. taken over the team, planned and allocated diff people to do different things, my brothers gotta rise up! =p then pool with some others from 4s2. it was a great time of fellowship. and there'll be more coming up! though i'm always tired after work... and home is just like few steps away.. heheh, nevertheless, i should make the extra effort to build a stronger unity team. i think they enjoyed themselves. =) MORE TO COME!

some photos..... FINALLY! but.. let me post the photos another day.. prob tmr. i'm so blur, i arranged the photos in the folder of my memory card instead of the folder in my PC! =/

gtg! 12am, time for ZZZZZ soon!

posted by Yan @ 11/28/2006 12:00:00 AM 0 Comments

i think i'm quite quiet today.......... hmmm, i dont really know whats wrong actually. however, i'm still in the midst of making a decision of what God wants me to do. =( i dont know how.... only God knows.

well, today was a great service! Pastor Phil Pringle came. and the message was really good! sadly, sean didn't come as he agreed. =( prob this did not start my day well.

my Define contact lens today too! i'm so vain, wore that, and now suffering the pain again at my right eye. but i feel it does really make my eyes bigger! it's expensive.... shall not waste money on this anymore, since most of the people said it dont make a different anyway. heheh, thank God for my natural big eyes then.

recruited another two ushers! and i'm so excited in seeing them join and serve together! a casual outing with my ushers tmr. looking forward to the pool game! shall take some photos also as my memories. =)

gtg now. prepare for an early night, tmr is gonna be a long long day................

posted by Yan @ 11/26/2006 09:16:00 PM 0 Comments

short post while i wait for rachel to call me and out i go for support duty then cgm! support at Expo, and CGM at JW! hahahahahah. nevertheless, i'm gonna make it for both.

haii, this pair of eyes aren't working well for me................ =( but tmr is sunday! should be a pretty pretty day for me. how can i wear specs and become Xiao Toot Toot instead of the usual XTT. lol! prob i shall go get just one pair of daily lenses and wear just tmr. hahhaa, i'm so boring. i only makeup on sun. but working now defiantely helps me in making up more la. hehehe, who would want to see a ghost at the counter when they come in right? XTT! hehehehe

she's yet to call me......... =( my breakfast! should i eat? what if i get stomachache again. =( it's always happening to me. haii, but i'm just so tham jia(greedy or itchy mouth)....... on the other hand, i hate going to toilets. hahaha, then Li Ching told me the consequences of trying to keep the dirty things than let it out. hahahaahha! sometimes they just make me scared!!

oh ya, i had a great time joking with ray last night. HAHAH. thank God i stay in yishun if not i'm dead meat now! lol.

i just dreamt that Sun Plaza became a super nice shopping mall..... HAHA. with those sushi restaurants.. PASTAMANIA and blah. and i saw yuting, jiawen, kiateng, waikit and eugene eating! ahah, it's in the dream. yuting had this beef with super black sauce.... LOL, it's just a dream, when will it come true.... hmmmmmmm.

anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS! =)

posted by Yan @ 11/25/2006 08:44:00 AM 0 Comments

agree with jo. he tagged on my board saying i have crazy life. hahahha, so i briefly read through my past few entries and i think it's really random, crazy. hahahha.
i think becos, my minor eye infection, then still play mahjong, supper, finding stuffs to work on forever. hahahha. and blah!
i'm rather satisfied with my work performance today. becos i've got loads to do! finally today has come when my colleagues just feel free and ask me do stuffs. YAY! hahahha. i cant stand sitting there and doing nothing. of cos, today had some free time too. and i sang out loud! hahahhaa. Christmas carols this season. prob for this month i'll be singing everyday! admiring the beautiful christmas tree we set up.
nice right............ hehehe


with sabbie!

first in my life time using an apple cutter to chop the things up! fast, neat and clean! shall get one for mum too. hehehe

my phone. we have 4 lines. and all were lit!

i think it's about all for today. nth much to blog for now. hehehe. i'm all so excited! BREAKTHROUGH!

posted by Yan @ 11/24/2006 10:21:00 PM 0 Comments

yummy.... i'm so super full now. i think i'm quite boring in the area of food. =( its always those normal, always eat food lor. hahahha. but i'll try others...... same goes when i go for lunch break, hahah, though it's really near my house, i mean the market and food area, i always have the same food. so.. i've not tried all yet! hehehe, but soon. prob the next few mths working at Daybreak will help me finish trying all the food here.

this few days i'm having more work load! and i'm so happy. at least they wont waste money on someone who can do more than shredding. HAHAH. more of using the PC, which is super slow, and the letter H is so difficult to type can. slow down my pace somehow. i like to complete things fast fast. i almost wanted to continue what i haven't finished in office today. but, i dont have the more updated one in my mail... so, continue tmr.

then was back home for mahjong, a few rounds then i just fell asleep. was so tired. i wonder why. till the extent of forgetting to key in the WHOLE TEAM's forecast! goodness, how can i ever forget to do such an important task. kinda disappointed with myself for a moment. imagine everything is BLANK! i can visualise Wanyun's expression. HAHAH.
i woke up immediately when i knew something is gonna change in my team!! and i'm all excited, happy to go for it!! so i woke up, decided to go for supper with the rest. omg, i'm a crazy easily excited girl! but it's good. HAHAH!

shall stop blogging now. i'm getting boring... yea.... upload photos again tmr! =p

posted by Yan @ 11/23/2006 02:24:00 AM 0 Comments

what a day to start my week. =(
eye infection. still minor now. and i know, that God will not let the situation worsen but i'll be healed very sooon! esp during this time, i should spend money, though i know eyes are important, but i really regret and blame myself for not being careful. i actually wore the same one pair of lenses for like 50days!!! instead of normal 30 days! goodness.. i really didn't realise it till this morning after i came out of bath then i told mum actually i cant really see clearly. then she asked me did i change my lens? haiiii..... she thought i went to buy a new pair myself! HAHHAHA. but thank God, i didn't insist on wearing it today, i still look good in specs, at least presentable to be at front desk. HAHAH!

i think i really like DayBreak staffs! they're really..... concern lor, i feel so like a xiao mei to them now. =x throughout the whole lunch they were persuading me to go see a doc, but i didn't want to, cos it's so scary after last year's incident. yea, but it's definately much better now. =)

work again tmr.... and i'm still thinking if i should get one more plan. haiiii. it's the first time i'm considering so long for something which i want, and prob need as well. it concerns 2yrs..... so it's worth my time thinking and really calculate my finances. though starhub will be paid by mum, the new one will be by myself. will i be able to support myself by the time poly starts? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

saw alot of blogs with what they want for Christmas. i shall have one list too! HAHAH.

• More long sleeve tops... maybe one of the ed hardy's.
• a green top by 22nd DEC! Daybreak Christmas lunch's colour code. hehehe
• prob few pairs of heels, or flats.
• makeup! blusher will do. and mascara is good too. i'm not very particular. heheheh.
• 2 more pairs of pants
• 3 more pairs of jeans
• sum up for the few points above, i wanna change my whole wardrobe too!
• BAGS! backpack, handbag all ok. HAHA.
• mahjong table. hahaha, this is for my whole family. LOL!
• one LAPTOP! VAIO PINK is nice............ but i can always settle on one which is good.
• some accessories.. i wanna get the silver plain big circle earrings, but i somehow cant find them anymore.
• Hair Salon voucher!!!! seriously, a rebonding needs to be done, new colour to greet the new year!
• a CAR!
• a new phone... with a plan....... hmmmmmmmmmmmm....... this is the thing thats been bothering me for so long
• a Barney Lim! HAHHAHA. that dog is so funny.

i think i'm material enough. hahaha, but i'll add on more if i can think of in days to come.

posted by Yan @ 11/22/2006 12:12:00 AM 0 Comments

ok.. shall admit that i wasn't really close with cg, not bearing fruits and being a better member, someone who i can be. the active xy in w125 became less active in w295, then even more more inactive in w411. but nevertheless... i kept praying for a balance recently, though i knew i wasn't balance long ago yet i didn't do anything to that prob UNTIL recently! thank God i did.
just wanna say, i love w295 and w411, truely. today's outreach was amazing! though i didn't get to invite friends, but i interact with the friends who came! and i had a great time talking to them, seeing them smile after everything end and i'm sure they love us too. the new girl kelly, i think i can hang out with her more soon. she belongs to w295, not officially but will someday! yea.. i think she'll like me. HEHHEHE. of cos my own cg members! we're creative! what a fruit salad instant noodle! and we won the competition for that! HAHAH. it's nice ok....

i think, i really want to go towards cg once again.. not so drifted anymore. next move, stay longer for fellowship after CG! heheheheheh. so weijun wont say i'm always leaving early also. HAHHAHA.

i am treasuring ppl ard me alrdy.... GOD, my cg, my ministry, FAMILY! my workplace people! i'm really inspired to be a counsellor too! a counsellor cum teacher. WOOHOO!

forecast for grp outing is not bad from my team. hehehe. SUNDAY SUNDAY! and i feel i really gotta step out of my comfort zone, do more. trust God!

things may not be going very well now.. but, i know everything will turn out good for those who love God!

Sci MCQ paper tmr. hmmmm.. need to really revise again! i somehow gave everything back to teachers after my last paper on last fri. HAHAHHA. thank God, still rmb Chem!!! yea, i like Chem.

oh yes.. was talking to Jonathan, a cgl from Jeremy's zone. i think he's really a nice leader. looking for a cg nearer to his young member. all the way to WYZ zone! HAHA.

gotta go! waking my T ushers up later at 5am! grp breakfast later too! and Internal Traffic, though been there for 3 consecutive duties.. but i'll still go with a willing heart to serve happily once again! and i believe i'll learn something new! =)

posted by Yan @ 11/19/2006 01:06:00 AM 0 Comments

haha. what a relaxing day for me today. did some little stuffs.. the normal ones, hear voicemails... open mailbox... check for fax... recording... hmmmmm.. then was lunch time! what interesting topics today! hehehe. haunted places.. then FiFi sent me the website for those places thingy... cool, at least today i talked more over the table.

after lunch was Christmas tree setup time!!!!
didn't take the before setup one... so... this is the plain empty one.


then me with the decor! HAHHA. was thinking if i can be satarina for Daybreak. LOL


and the Christmas Tree ALMOST done!!!! gonna get more Decor. shall take a photo of my recept area soon!


great day. then met rach went Popular get her stuffs, then lava.. talked to him, thank God he's open to me. =)

since blogger's photo uploading is working fast now, shall post the past pictures which i wanted.

i hope i really can drive soon.....


taken in the lift while going for mum's birthday dinner! it's so seldom that my dad smiles! hehhehe. i love them! and yea, he smiled becos he struck lottery that day! HAHA!


i look just like a teacher in this pair of specs. i like. hahahha


one of my good good sister now! be it in Christ, Kaki in anything like breakfast and whatever. LOL. u know the whatever is what right.............. no need name out. hAHHAHA


some pics still cant be uploaded after several attempts....... =( another time den! hahah. i think there's a limit?

CG OUTREACH TMR! instant noodle and shoe making! woohoo.

posted by Yan @ 11/18/2006 12:35:00 AM 0 Comments

hmmm.. i think i'm gonna love my workplace very soon! hahahah.
becos it's a christian organisation, we can have more "religious" talk. like today, we talked abt manifestation. and some of our colleagues are really very anointed. i just heard that one woman manifested in the midst of the counselling session! i believe, she's open alrdy ba... her case didn't recur. PTL!
and i went into office, saw Grace reading her Bible, later i think she was sharing about how to deal with manifestation to another colleague. didn't hear much though.
becos i'm the only one at the lobby area, so i had super loads of space. managed to finish all my work till somehow there's nothing more for me to do today, i went guitar4christ and started singing. HAHAHAHA! colleague came out and asked what was i singing then realised she's from CHC as well! WOW!
i think i'm the most carefree person in office. hehehehehe.

was surfing the net and came across this article about Depression. sadly, i have some of the symptoms mentioned for those who are having SERIOUS DEPRESSION! goodness... but, i'm not depress!!! HAHHAHA.

anyway, lunch with the colleagues, they're rather political, cant really speak much over the table, just listen and enrich myself. LOL. but they're still nice to me.

we're also playing the Exchanging Gift game in the office itself!! and we are to just pick a name out from the envelope. guess what? i picked the Director's name!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! immediately i said, STRESS in front of LiChing and she knew who was it. =x shall think hard of what to get.

working tmr.. meeting my usher tmr as well. he's rather erm..... not super stable but stable kind? complicated case, gotta pray for wisdom in what i'm gonna say to him. what are the events after work...? hmmmmm... home for mahjong session? LOL

posted by Yan @ 11/16/2006 11:52:00 PM 0 Comments

met rachel for lunch during my break. it was a sunny day, and somehow, strong wind blew and the rain started pouring!! and we're like.... hahaha, young girls sitting in the umbrella table continue lunching? HAHAHAHA.
anyway, was half drenched when i was back in office. and with my this white colour shirt, almost translucent with rain is like... OMG lor. thank God we found cardboard and shelter myself back to office. only the back, thank GOD!
so now, i've learnt not to wear this shirt without checking the weather forecast, bring umbrella even for lunch and tissue!!! HAHAH. also thank God for the "personal" air con above me, cos i can adjust the temp for myself. heheheh, of cos gotta think for the walk-in clients.
i think i'm gonna fall sick, very soon. cos the symptoms are out alrdy. =( i think i cant adjust to working again so soon. i'm off work for like one yr.... soon, i'll adapt to the hrs. have good rest like normal people at night.

yea, ytd was shredding. today is chopping. i'm pretty efficient ok?! now i'm expert in shredding fast and cutting papers liao! HAHAHA. tmr.... will be arranging the files in the first half, next half.... perhaps tearing of papers??!?! LOL. hopefully not...

fun colleagues too! my job is like, admin/recept and ad-hoc. so.. i have to "screen" thru people and calls when they come in. so today.. as usual, screening calls and transferring. suddenly, one call came in so as per normal, "Good afternoon DayBreak!" then i heard myself somewhere!? i was like shocked? confused? stunned? hahahha. and wonder what's happening. my first thought was, is grace(administrator who is my boss) spot checking on me? i must say the right things. then i heard laughters from the whole office inside!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAH. it's regina who called me lor! intercommed me. it's like so diao. and when i look up, i saw ALL EYES on me, laughters. Sabrina then told me regina pranked me. at that time, i was STILL STUNNED! HAHHAHHAHA. but they're really nice. grapes...... yummy!

gotta go. working tmr. i wanna have a good sleeping habit.

i really dont feel good. really.... i'm not sure if you know who am i talking to. yes, is you. i dont understand why... the names is so important. i know that reaching out to the lost is VERY important. but i know myself that i haven't even sow a seed into another person's life, how to share the gospel with him/her? invite the person? perhaps, i'm wrong becos it seems like i'm so stagnant and not growing, being fruitful in whatever i do. it seems like i'm always the young and wrong one. the thing is.... i just hope and wish for some understanding from you guys. i've just got my new job, and trying to adapt to it. but.... i just dont know what to say, how to explain myself. becos i know, whatever i say seems to be wrong somehow somewhere.
i know i haven't been balancing, but i'm TRYING! YES I AM. but when the feeling of not being important there makes me feel so little of myself, and the feeling of needed there makes me feel like, i'm so loved, welcomed, and i'll look forward of doing more things. of cos, to this, you guys may have what u wanna say and advise me, i know and i can even say what what you're gonna say.. but sometimes, pls, gimme some time and understanding.

posted by Yan @ 11/15/2006 09:16:00 PM 0 Comments

i officially started work!! hahaha.
the people are nice. and i have a big working space!! i'm surrounded by 4 long connected tables. hahah. in front of me will be the entrance, on my left is the PC, right is one big space to do whatever i want, hind is where all the extra things and stuffs were placed. two office chairs for me to move about.. hahaha and best! INTERNET ACCESS! so i still can msn... hehehhe! so guys talk to me please. though i pretty like this kinda sit down and do my duty job, but it can be rather sian doing the same thing over and over again. my duty for today, SHREDDING!!!!!!!! hahaha, i used to love shredding. every time i'll tag along with jo to her office on Sats then she'll gimme a stack of papers to shred. so fun. hahaha.... but imagine today i have to shred like 6 black thrash bag full of papers?!?!? it's not that fun alrdy...... hahaha, tmr i'll have one or two more bags to shred.
oh ya, tranferring calls.... hahaha, fun as well. i can learn pretty fast, hmmm, actually it's easy alrdy. hahahhaa. opening the letterbox.. chatting on msn(sometimes only), looking after client's kids!!!! you guys may not know, my that company is more of counselling.. therefore we're to meet the needs of the people and citizen ma. that means... the kids are not easy to handle as well. but, at least i dont only do shredding the whole day today! HAHHAHA. a release...

my company name is DAYBREAK! it's a methodist organisation. the colleagues are really nice. hehehhee. but i'm starting to see myself fat fat soon.... imagine we'll go out for lunch, then come back sit down again.. the routine is like that everyday. HAHAHA, i'll become a pig.

"Good morning DAYBREAK!" then they'll say who they wanna speak to. and i'll press the ext. hahahhaa. i like. answering the phone calls.

tired alrdy, i better get going if not... tmr will be very restless.

posted by Yan @ 11/15/2006 01:14:00 AM 0 Comments

PRAISE THE LORD!

i'm back with some good news! I AM EMPLOYED!!!!!!!!!
interview at 10am, tried to look as smart as possible though i didn't have enough sleep. and Praise The Lord! i'm really happy that i got this job. like i said, it's near home, cheap and nice food, good working environment. the company is Methodist Family Services. i think so.. .heheheh. my pay is not very high, but i think this is the beginning where i learn and get experience! looking forward to my first day which is tmr, 7hrs later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA.
will be like at the front desk, answering calls, diverting calls and stuffs. shredding??? hehhehe. i like. HAHHAHAA. i'm so happy! =)

spent a great night last night though. HAHAHA, mahjong. and to think mum is ok with it. no scoldings or whatever. i feel so... blessed with my parents. hahah. strict at times and free at times. perhaps, it's also favor of mum on someone. HHAHA

ok, my eyes are still heavy. stop blogging now! =p i'll be a OFFICE GIRL in 7hrs times!!! HAHAHAHAH!

posted by Yan @ 11/14/2006 01:45:00 AM 0 Comments

i'm gonna go on fasting and praying for some issues next week. major in one that issue..... i really gonna be so hungry, dilligent to listen to and for God speak to me. becos... it concerns everything. my everything. though in whatever areas, we'll still be serving Him. but... it's the emotion part.

i still can rmb when we're moving to Expo, i cried for a few days becos i'm gonna part with section 11. but in the end, i came back and joined them again! this time, it is serious... i gotta take it seriously.

the feeling of hearing the answer soon is so..... i dont know. hahah, it all depends on God. not me.

posted by Yan @ 11/11/2006 01:33:00 AM 0 Comments

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! my majors are over. the next paper will be on 20th!!! omg. i'm so happy becos i can sleep at ease without formulas, numbers and equations in my dreams. i'm gonna have my sweet sweet dreams already. hehehe.

maths paper 2 to me was not that easy. becos my lousiest topics came out. mensuration and trigo!!! =((( but, i know God will help me and bring me through. hehehe. no worries.

did i mention i'm going for interview next mon!!! 10am! so u guys must pray for me!!! =) the superiors are Christians too! hehehhee. working hrs are like 9-6pm, and fri 9-5pm. woohoo! i can wake up at 8am! HEHEHE. so looking forward.

after paper went Bishan met up with Rachel and Jeff for our dinner. AJISEN. i think i wasted money on that DON! hahaha, jeff said it's like going KFC for fish. =/ anyway, i think i pretty like Sudoku, hopefully can get one soon so i wont be so bored on the way to places.

then back home, decided to go dayi's house. my "cute" bro suggested we take bus when i suggested cab because it's he who's gonna pay. but when we were opposite the bus stop, the bus was alrdy there. and people who know me wont like crossing the road as and when. so he ran over, and i took my time to wait for the cars to all clear. heheh. then he said, lets take the shortcut go to the next bus stop! and we ran like siao. =/ due to my speed, we missed that bus. hahaha. then we started quarrelling, and began walking too. its was so far, and i'm really tired.......... so, took a cab in the end. normally, time taken to dayi's house is less than 5min with cab, 10min with bus. but today, 45mins to her house!! spending the same amount of money. haiiiii. next time shall not listen to him. afterall, we had a great time running and stuffs. HAHAH. though i'm really tired, but i really love my bro.
i love my sis too! blessed her with one Mac meal ok!!!! hahahhaha.

yea, so had some mahjong theory as usual at dayi's house. and i really miss them so much. it seems like i'm just released from prison!!! HAHAHA.

had a good day today. so, looking forward to tmr's support duty and CGM! =)

posted by Yan @ 11/10/2006 11:59:00 PM 0 Comments

i am really blogging too much. but... this entry will be about what i wanna do after all my papers.

1. Job interview
2. Kbox with CS
3. Pasta Buffet
4. By next week hopefully can work le
5. meet up with people for dinners
6. help my sister in her schoolwork
7. Sentosa
8. Zoo
9. Time with family
10. Cycling
11. Learn Singing sooon..
12. Hair
13. CNY clothes
14. Christmas gifts
15. Etc etc......

sum it up, 95% of all i listed need to spend money!!!!!!!!!!!! =(((( go for the important ones, not the urgent but not important this time. hehehe.

posted by Yan @ 11/10/2006 02:08:00 AM 0 Comments

PTL for one more job opportunity! though haven't went for the interview, i just pray that God will make things so good!
thanks to Sabrina for helping me ask her boss. her workplace is at Khatib, still within working distance. means.. i can save transport fee! it is ard the neighbourhood, and it sells nice and cheap food here! so... i can save food expenses too! unlike in town, one meal costs about $5. if MOS, it'll be even more ex! i can eat up to $10 a meal! unless the students' meal, $4. but if i eat here, it'll be different! one plate of rice is ard $2 only! therefore, i'll be able to save, $2 transport fee, and $3 on food! total $5!!! if i save $5 a day, i can save $150 a month!! saves time too! to walk there from home is ard 15min for my speed. no need to worry if any bus or train will come late. can sleep more too. hehehe. dont mind if i need to start work at 7.30am, 7.15am then leave home lor. HEHHEHE! after work, 15min can reach home! no need squeeze in the train. woohoo, i'm so excited!!!
if i get the job, PTL! GOD IS GOOD! if not, ALSO PTL! God is still good to becos He'll lead me to another better better job. =)

no more pasta buffet tmr.... but BS instead! well, though i would want to eat the pasta, i think i should desire to know God's word more! so yea, tmr's pasta might be not nice. next week's will be a better deal too! hehehe.

i wonder how i can sleep the whole day today!!!! such a pig can. the weather is just too good to sleep. the bed is so tempting. so i slept and slept. till 9pm, then i woke up and start practising my maths. still restless, however i can take the whole night to practise the ones which i'm not good at.

posted by Yan @ 11/10/2006 01:07:00 AM 0 Comments

the agent called me in the morning telling me what kinda jobs is open now. so there's on which is at NorthPoint, very near my house. it's to help out at the redemption counter, gift wrap and stuffs. i pretty like this kinda job. but i need to commit on weekends. which i turned it off and said i want those 5days job.
also asked if 5.5days is ok for me, i'm like..... hmm, okiess.... will be somewhere at woodlands. however, i do wish to find a job more towards south and not towards West. woodlands is pretty inconvenient if i have cg at 2pm and off work at 1pm. too late... well, believing God for a good job opportunity! GIMME ONE ADMIN/CUSTOMER SERVICE/RECEPTION JOB! must be specific so God will know. hehehe.
agreed to go down for interview at 3pm, but right now... hahaha, i think i shall not go down alrdy. should do my paper 2 first. hehehe.

had a chat with jul last night. at least, we cleared things up and i made my unhappiness known. she's one of my good sister ok! wont blame her for misunderstanding me becos i know that not every single one will know everything about the other person. so yea.. rach dont worry la, i dont blame you too. thanks for helping me in that thing anyway! at least i wont feel so weird anymore. HAHAHA. understood.

just like to say, it's always better to ask the direct person rather than go one big round. there'll be different stories, and it'll become a gossip after long. jeff is a good boy ok. HAHAHAHA, rachel jie wants you. hehehehe.

finally used the Levi's voucher. got one long sleeve top which i like when i first saw it like weeks ago. it's black, and with like silvery prints. also, dad blessed me a pair of footwear. bought is hastily, but i still like. hehe. it's on offer somemore. praise the Lord!

shall be like what i always be. an auntie. gonna search for cheap but nice things. Christmas is coming, thinking of creative things to do for my loves.

Maths paper 2 tmr! all the best to me!!! =)

posted by Yan @ 11/09/2006 03:12:00 PM 0 Comments

just back from MediaCorp. went to support F1, Feng Yi.
was pretty quiet throughout the day i suppose. becos ytd when i was watching the DVD, i visualised myself being the worship leader on stage singing and dancing serving the Lord. so... went quiet and start to have thoughts if i should enrol myself into a music school and start training on vocals. i like to sing, though i may not have a good voice. definately, if i enrol, the fees will be on me. i should start working and save up! of cos, PRIORITIES. anyway, applying for jobs already. i'm so enthu about working. becos all my hard earned will be spent wisely.

Who we will be 10yrs later will not be who we are NOW! i may be a little shrimp now, i might be a big fish soon! =)

Exams is still fine. not too hard, manageable. so PTL! two more papers to go! and off for my own stuffs! =p

HAIIII.. i'm emo. for today. i just felt extra suddenly. am talking to 2 person now. and i feel like whenever i mix with them, somehow something will happen. or a "conversation" will begin. whats worse, it's not direct. i wonder why we have to be so secretive though we seem like not. i like the company of people, but it seems like my presence made them so hard to have an open life. why people who doubt things, have wonders and questions about me, cant just ask me!? FACE TO FACE! i'm quite pissed, now actually. just controlling still...

perhaps its some form of concern? protective about the weaker person!? haii. IT WAS ALL A STUPID MISTAKE I MADE! i just feel like there're so much gossips behind me right now. i'm feeling upset, and down. when i need a physical pillar, what is it? my pillow. but i know, my spiritual pillar is just beside me right now.

the person who'll make me smile is no longer here. =( i kinda miss that person.... things changes, people changes, thinking changes, feelings change. however, God is the SAME, yesterday, today and forever!

i just need a bucket. perhaps i should get one pink nice bucket. at least i'll feel better looking at it next time.

posted by Yan @ 11/09/2006 12:58:00 AM 0 Comments

sometimes, i feel i depend too much on myself. there's a lack in me.

the DVD is great. really.. Presence of God is so strong! though it may be recorded, i can just feel His presence all the while listening to the DVD.

I want more of You...

posted by Yan @ 11/08/2006 01:56:00 AM 0 Comments

now is 2.30am. a short note before i go ZZZ.

read thru some chem. and i jsut need prayers now. PTL for Maths today, it was rather easy though i might not do super well. i really wanna score better than a C6.
after my paper went home for a short nap then met sx. nice fellowship. and i got really inspired to do more things.

after that went Suntec with Rachel, met up with Jeff and studied Chem. not bad, thank God that i paid attention in class therefore revision was pretty easy.

on the way back while talking to rach, i felt that God is really speaking to me through so many people and things that happened and which is still happening. yes, we're both too attached to UM. and kinda detached from CG. which is a dangerous zone becos it seems like UM is the spiritual family when CG SHOULD BE! BALANCE! i MUST balance.

my management is no good. i admit. if i do not have the balance, how can i be a good leader? so what if i am doing well and good in UM and neglecting my own spiritual family? God doesn't call me to be a leader in ONLY UM, but i can also be a leader in my CG! given a newly multiplied CG, the more i should put in effort in building up people's lives, rise up to the name of core member and not lazing ard, staying in the Comfort Zone of CG.
A leader does not display his/her leadership in one area ONLY, it should be ALL areas. yes, it shouldn't be DOUBLE STANDARD.
As a helper in UM, there're times we need to disciple our sheeps, teach them, help them to grow. but how to do that when i'm not doing what i teach and say? this CANNOT be the way to walk with God. and i know God is not please now. =( but i'll change! for the better.

One leader told Rachel one sentence, which is dont WASTE your life away. yea, we should live our life to the fullest!

planned some stuffs which i'll do after my O's.
Spend more time with my CG and ushers. therefore, i've decided to find office jobs so i can have evenings for dinner with a few at a time.
OF COS KTV!
JB for Shopping and Food.
Organise Outings.
MAHJONG! hahaha.
Complete my BS courses.

there're so many things to do, again like what i was told just now, some things may be urgent, but not important. some things maybe be important but not urgent. so what's the PRIORITY? -rachel

we should start doing something now than to wait till something bad or big happens then trace back what happened. it'll be too late. -swee xiang

BOTH IN THE SAME DAY! it's like WOW! thanks to u two!!

things that i wanna see myself doing after my exams.
1. KNOW ALL the sisters more in the CG.
2. Spend more time with them
3. Build and Rise up more leaders in the team!
4. GROWTH in both CG and UM
5. Learn GUITAR if possible. hahahaha. it might take a long time to master. BUT, whats most important is the WILLINGNESS to learn! and Bible says NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! so who says i cant be a guitarist? hehehe.
6. Reach out to the lost, since i've just completed my VL BS, i should apply the things i've learnt than to let it rust!

ALOT more..... but it's time for bed now. ALL THE BEST TO ME AND THOSE WHO'RE TAKING CHEM TMR! =)

posted by Yan @ 11/07/2006 02:35:00 AM 0 Comments

dark circles!!!!!!!!!! ugly little young girl. oh no...

yawnssss. update more soon. =)

posted by Yan @ 11/04/2006 09:30:00 AM 0 Comments

i'm really very excited!!!!! asked shuling in the noon if FB still has vacancy for me to work!! and i've alrdy kinda plan out what are the things i have to settle with my pay. i hope to start work soon. i like working. ahaha, but it's just working and not career. career might be different.

anyway, i'm super excited la. someone who has job lobangs pls contact me!!!

today is not a fruitful day. planned that today will be a physics day, but in the end, i had a better time with my family. =( there's no chemistry with physics!!! but i'll still try my best to do well for physics as well, not gonna score that bad again!
thank God for two more physics class this few days, one tmr and one on tues which is the day before the paper!!!!!!!!! *shivers*
then maths lesson for 2hrs tmr as well!! woohoo, i'm excited becos tmr will be a maths day. hopefully i wont go crazy!!! hahahahah.

posted by Yan @ 11/02/2006 10:55:00 PM 0 Comments

today is my mum's birthday!!! actually... i forgot about it. i knew it is on the 1st of Nov. but.. somehow i didn't keep track of the date.

anyway. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

though she'll never read this blog, just God for creating her. she's the BEST MUMMY i'll ever get. there were times we're upset abt things, we cry together. times when we get dad angry, we'll know where to find each other. when i'm eating at home, she'll cook my favourite dishes. though we dont live in a big big house, wearing nice nice clothes everyday, i still love this wonderful house becos mum is the woman behind all these. more to go on.. but i shall not carry on as well. cos my face is full of tears while typing these thinking of how much she's gone through for us. just before i could open my eyes, she endured all the pain.
i really regret shouting at her in the past, being rude. but i'm trying my very best to be a very good girl to her, honouring her.

anyway, dinner with her tonight with my whole family. WOOHOO. hope to get the Thai food. hehehehe. bbye!

posted by Yan @ 11/01/2006 03:56:00 PM 0 Comments

ok, been doing AES Paper 1 for the past ermmmm... 3hrs? had a conference call with my section people. thank God i've done almost everything needed to be done. shall have a good weekend ahead alrdy. gonna be overnight mugging on fri. so God bless me with strength and wisdom! my brain is blocked from the paper. '

some photos to share. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont know what's wrong with blogger. lousy. upload the photos tmr! hmph

posted by Yan @ 11/01/2006 02:04:00 AM 0 Comments